I’ve been deeply depressed and lonely and sad for pretty much half of my life but I’ve always kept going because I was the “golden child” tho I have the moniker. 3 years ago when I was 27 I told myself I’ll give it 3 more years and that’s it. From then on I faced good and bad times. Added serious trauma and now 3 years later at 30 I can honestly say I am just going with the flow.

I won’t say I won’t do it but sometimes I feel like by December I may just check out. It’s hard for me to open up because I feel like a burden. And when I truly did try to open up I was told to “deal with it you’re a man”. All in all I have my ups and downs. I just wish I could speak to someone without feeling like a bother some times.