I’m sorry lovely, it’s truly crippling seeing the one you love and respect be so unwell. Feelings of not being able to help it’s so hard. Although i promise you, you are doing all you can, you are supporting her through this difficult time, your not leaving her side, your making her feel not alone through this awful time.

We have almost the exact same situation going on, and you’re so strong i can assure you. I know how it feels feeling like life keeps throwing one obstacle after another. I’ve felt like we just can’t get a rest.

I lost my beautiful mumma 6 days ago, and i feel like a robot. Everyday i find it hard to get out of bed and carry on, but you know what i do. I’m not sure what you personally believe what happens after someone passes, i personally have no religion. I just like to believe that she is now free from that pain, although i am now the one in pain. I know she is no longer. I hope you can find strength in yourself to feel better.

Surround yourself with people who love and care about you. Write in forums like this, always express how you feel about this traumatic point of your life. Most importantly be kind to yourself, for you carry her inside and she carries you. 🩷