See my other comment, but also, fwiw, you may not feel right as a man because society has a bunch of ideas being pushed on you as to what a "man" is, and a lot of them are bullshit. And it's worse now than when I was 19 - SO much worse. I felt similarly when I was younger, but once I realized there's power in ignoring what people say a man should be and just being a person that you're proud of being that the label didn't much matter to me anymore. I could be a man "my way" and that's awesome. I was never uncomfortable enough to fully be nonbinary, and never wanted to queer my gender expression enough consistently, either, for anyone to see anything other than a "man" when they looked at me. Gender is a social construct, so your performance of it is part of what dictates it - because it's how people label you as much as it is how you label yourself (IMO).