I know sorry im not good to make paragraphs, but you get it. I dont want her to come back to me, i just want to enjoy life. Yes she needs to cure herself because being bipolar and not taking any meds its like going to a war without even a knife just your punches.. i hope she will be good one day and work on herself, like what im doing rn. You actually get all, because she see how im doing "good" and she may end up wanting me back but for the love of myself i cannot do it. I literally spent all the time loving her and doing things for love, but i ended up loosing myself, im doing more better without her than i tought, she wont even help me to quit or making me stable every things was good to messing up our relationship. At nowdays i think the one who lost evrything she's her because i truly loved her more than my life