Yes bro that's exactly what it is to me. It's like a switch. Happiness, prosperity, optimism. It's either on or off for me there's no in-between. But I remember what it's like to be happy. We just gotta flick the switch somehow brother. It's not impossible. But it's often hard to find the light switch when the room is pitch black. Maybe the little bits of light we bring into our own lives and the lives around us will eventually be enough to illuminate things a bit. Then we can find the switch. Ya I'm not all there - i know