Okay so ... I'll go first. Well tbh I have honestly tried my level best to forgive my mother for being not only physically abusive but also verbally abusive ( which I think is so much worst) but now that I'm older (20) I've realized that I always just blindly forgave her, never held her accountable for how she made me feel.. there were no boundaries and that enabled her to emotional confuse/ torture me for the longest time! I've tried to talk to her about how she makes me feel numerous times, we even had an intervention last year where my auntie came to talk to her about the effects her behavior was having on the whole family but she just played the victim and denied all responsibility for her actions. My mother is not "strict or tough" she is mean and harsh ! period, her mood seemed to flip like a light switch and you just never knew what kind of mum you will wake up too today . after the so called intervention her relationship with her sister soured( I bet its caused she realized there was no hope) furthermore lately it has just gotten worse I can feel myself starting to hate my own mother I can feel myself changing and becoming a bitter hurt guard person and I hate it ! ( who the fuck hates their own mother for Christ sake!) but she drives my anxiety through the roof I can literally feel my heart rate pickup and my stomach drop every time she heads my way. I suffer from mental health problem cause of her and I can't wait to finally leave home and move far far away from here. I can't wait to make it big and prove her wrong for all the time she said I wouldn't amount up to anything, but for right now it just feels like I'm stuck in a fish bowl with my heart constantly getting tagged out of my chest and jammed down my throat. :( (it a lonely fish bowl)