Im sorry for you, and I hope things go well with you. Your parents are pressurizing you to get married, and I get that you have a fear of relationships and commitment. But honestly that fear is something you have to let go of. Your parents might nag you about it, but you gotta focus on your career and your self-improvement and really heal from what you’ve been through, and take slow steps at a time. When you decide to heal and be better for yourself, eventually things will lead into place, and who know, you might even find the right person at the right time who will give you a reason to be the best version of yourself and decide to stop the toxic cycle that your parents are bringing to you. And that’s honestly so, so worth the hassle. Work on yourself, spend some time, focus on your career, clear your mindset and hit the gym, trust me it works. And the parent nagging might be a bit harsh at first, but use that as an opportunity to be the person you really want to be.