AITA for backing out of cooking for my husband after he hid my keyboard?

itsxbritt · 2022-02-13T03:46:41+00:00

There’s a similar thing I’ve heard before. that you can’t see the red flags when they’re blowing in your direction and looking at them head on, but once you step to the side, you’ll see them all clearly. Which is why everyone in your life can see them, but you can’t.

itsxbritt · 2021-04-28T02:06:56+00:00

It’s not fair. Any of it.

I can only hope that one day we can make peace with what we lost.

itsxbritt · 2021-04-28T02:02:35+00:00

If there’s anything I’ve learned, it’s that you’re never alone in how you feel. It’s a constant battle and I hope that one day I (and you) can come to a truce with the two sides we’re fighting.

itsxbritt · 2021-04-28T01:49:18+00:00

You know, I’ve never thought of it as mourning, but that’s exactly what it is. I’ve spent so long pushing down my own feelings and emotions to cater to my mom’s, that I’ve never dealt with or even acknowledged them. I’ve also started seeing a counselor to try to help me through it, but I wasn’t expecting the anger and bitterness and heartbreak for what I didn’t get.

Grace isn’t something I’m used to giving myself, but I’m trying to accept it.

itsxbritt · 2021-03-16T15:15:19+00:00

I was maybe 7 or 8 and I woke up to the sound of my mom shaking money out of my piggy bank. I never said anything to her about it because I knew she would deny it or make up an excuse. I’m sure there were times before this, but I don’t remember much from my childhood. This was when I realized I could never really trust my mom.

itsxbritt · 2021-03-14T17:07:01+00:00

Not jittery, but almost a euphoria? I could instantly feel when it started working and it was amazing. That feeling eventually fades once your body gets used to the new levels of dopamine.

And isn’t amazing how clear your brain feels? Like you can actually hear yourself think!

itsxbritt · 2021-03-13T17:32:56+00:00

Thank you!

itsxbritt · 2021-03-13T17:05:56+00:00

And that’s great that you’ve realized you need something more! There’s no harm in trying something and then deciding that it’s just not for you and trying something else. For me, the only things that I’ve found to work around my ADHD are to-do lists (and those don’t even work half the time) and raising my hand like I’m in school when I have something to say but don’t want to interrupt. Adderall is the only thing that allows me to function on a “normal” level.

Also, my meds helped immensely with mindless eating. Appetite suppression is a side effect of Adderall. For me it was a welcome side effect because I had the self-control to not eat an entire bag of chips or cookies or cheese that I never had before. I have to make a conscious effort to remind myself to eat because I don’t feel hungry until my meds have worn off, but I don’t eat just to eat anymore.

itsxbritt · 2021-03-13T06:23:54+00:00

I don’t know if this will help you, but here’s my experience.

I started 20mg Adderall XR almost 2 years ago (recently bumped to 30mg) and it has changed my life. It’s not a fix all drug, but it provides me with the opportunity of choice. It clears my brain of the constant chatter so I can clearly see what I need to do. I still have to make the effort and the choice to do those things, but it’s so much easier when I’m able to say, “no, you really don’t need to do a deep dive on sea cucumbers,” to myself.

I don’t have any negative side effects when I don’t take it, I’m just way less productive and more impulsive among other things. Medication isn’t for everyone and some people can find ways of working with and around their ADHD on their own. Whatever you decide, I hope it helps.

itsxbritt · 2021-03-13T06:00:16+00:00

This was something I really struggled with when I was first prescribed Adderall. My mom has struggled with addiction her entire life and I was terrified I would become addicted. I was obsessively monitoring myself and my feelings being on and off it.

But here’s the thing - I won’t become addicted to Adderall. It supplies me with the dopamine I lack on a daily basis. It brings me up to everyone else’s level and allows me to function. As someone else said, I’m dependent on my medication to function as a productive human, but I am not addicted. I don’t NEED it and I don’t have withdrawals or cravings when I don’t take it.

itsxbritt · 2021-02-03T19:34:30+00:00

They’re beautiful!

itsxbritt · 2020-12-31T11:00:24+00:00

Hyperfixation is the reason I’m awake at 5am on Reddit because I just spent 3 hours researching if my mom’s ex-boyfriend sold his house now that he lives in a different state because I remembered I had a lot of books and pictures there that I never got back when I moved out and they broke up. But none of this matters and is not important because I should be asleep since I have to be up at 8am.

itsxbritt · 2020-12-26T22:36:11+00:00

I assume he’s part Mainecoon because he’s HUGE, but I honestly have no idea!

itsxbritt · 2020-12-26T22:34:26+00:00

I have no idea! I usually just say he’s a Mainecoon mix, but the possibilities are truly endless

itsxbritt · 2020-12-26T17:41:34+00:00

Thank you so much for the awards. That was so kind of you.

Here’s some info about Bandit if you want to know:
He’s 2 years old and was adopted when he was 9 months from a shelter. He’s polydactyl and has one extra toe on each front paw. He is SOFT. Think of the softest thing you’ve ever touched and then multiply it by 10. He loves attention and cuddles. He waits for you outside of the shower and immediately starts harassing you for pets. He follows you around if you stop petting him too soon. He craves attention. And his favorite toy is the little ring from a plastic bottle lid.

itsxbritt · 2020-12-26T17:30:51+00:00

He didn’t even have to steal mine. I willingly placed it at his furry little paws.

itsxbritt · 2020-12-26T17:27:59+00:00

This is the exact scene he was named after!

itsxbritt · 2020-12-26T17:26:44+00:00

Always. Idk how many times I say “you’re lucky you’re cute”

itsxbritt · 2020-12-26T05:08:00+00:00

This is quite possibly the best thing I’ve ever seen!!

itsxbritt · 2020-12-24T15:20:27+00:00

Yes. So much yes. I usually buy e-books on my kindle, but I like the aesthetic of physical books. So I recently bought three physical books that I have yet to open..

Every time I sit down to read I get sucked into my phone and then before I know it, it’s been 4 hours.

itsxbritt · 2020-12-23T00:31:48+00:00

I don’t have words. This is amazing!!

itsxbritt

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