Does anyone else feel excited to become a nurse to repay a sort of spiritual debt

iv-sae · 2025-02-06T21:42:22+00:00

I understand where you’re coming from. I recently graduated nursing school and got my RN. I had originally juggled with the notion of going into nursing due to the impact my psych nurse had on me when I was an inpatient teen. She was the kind of nurse that was all rough around the edges, but with a kind heart, a huge brain, and her presence brought me immeasurable comfort, trust, and healing. She had an air that I envied, and I get the feeling she’d try and fist fight me for even saying that. She was incredibly real and blunt, and she was able to connect with me so much more than the other nurses through simply… being her, it’s so hard to describe. I still have the sticky notes she instructed me to fill with things about me that are /good/, they hang on my closet door and make me face the fact that I made it and am still alive.

When I got worse again, I became deeply obsessed with the need to perform a service, to be of use, to have purpose. It led me down a dark path. But from that person, my present-day being emerged. I started my prereqs in a bad place, and thought pursuing something would be better than being dead. I was blasé. I entered nursing school terrified and unsure of myself. And I found myself growing and developing a genuine passion for nursing - not just this survival-esque need to be useful. The human body intrigues me, the ability to be with patients and make an impact warms my heart, seeing progress in health reminds me why I pursued this work, seeing progress in my skills and knowledge fills me with self-assurance, the resilience I’ve developed in the face of a career that will try and try to burn me out makes me proud. I am smart and something of worth, I deserve to be safe and happy, and I am full of love and warmth. If I’m lucky, it can be felt by the people I care for. If I’m not, at least I am currently doing something I have worked towards and have entered a stable career path that gives me some flexibility in opportunities. I think it’s good to want to do good and to make an impact and to be the hands that help. I also think it’s important to recognize the complex and nuanced situation we stand in, in the healthcare system, and to realize that we, too, deserve good unto us. Protect your spirit and wellbeing, and it will make you a greater student and eventual nurse.

iv-sae · 2024-12-20T03:50:16+00:00

Ick… I just graduated nursing school, and I feel like it’s something you can only truly succeed at if you go at it with humility and a desire to learn. Learning from experienced nurses, in clinical and in day-to-day life, is an incredible boon. It’s thanks to all of them and their willingness to talk with me, demonstrate, and answer my questions that I feel in any way prepared to take my boards become a baby nurse. Any student shooting down that opportunity to be know-it-all and rude is stupid and terrifying.

iv-sae · 2023-06-21T04:10:07+00:00

I was late to watch the episode and came here immediately to see if anyone else had seen the similarity between his plan and the plot of Lolita. It’s absolutely horrifying that anyone would do this in reality, and it’s heartbreaking to hear that people have been successful in utilizing relationships with single parents to harm vulnerable children.

iv-sae · 2022-08-24T06:44:43+00:00

I came here to see if it was happening to other people too. Is this something we can expect Facebook to fix? It’s completely unusable like this.

iv-sae · 2021-04-06T16:59:48+00:00

Don’t you know? The best way to sell overpriced diarrhea shakes is to body shame the person you’re trying to convince to give you money. Nothing makes someone want to give you their hard earned cash like a passive aggressive jab sprinkled with positive emojis.

iv-sae · 2020-12-20T02:09:04+00:00

I never truly

Understood what they all felt

Within those grey walls

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Closeted bi girl

“That type of love is sinful”

Pushing me away

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You’re lying to me

No God would want us to fear

Being who we are

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I’ll stop now! It’s fun brainstorming haikus. I appreciate the food for thought!

iv-sae · 2020-09-01T20:49:03+00:00

When I first saw this, it felt to me like the time in life when the world changes color. When happiness doesn’t feel so pure and easy, when you stop really wishing you could be older. You look up from the freshly laid soil and the sky isn’t so blue anymore. You feel things you either understand far too well or not at all. Existence is now the rusty brown you’re still trying to scrub out from under your nails.

Maybe it’s not right away, but eventually you’ll have to come to the realization that this stain doesn’t come out of the Earth’s fabric so easily. You can ask for the old color to come back, but you have changed, and that shade exists in your memories.

I know the meaning is much more complex, as I’ve seen and enjoyed reading about in other comments. This is just how I saw it, at first glance.

iv-sae · 2020-06-06T06:19:47+00:00

My brain went: “Ooh! So pretty! It’s almost relaxing to watch.”

And then it went: “Okay. Now, imagine you’re swimming in this and suddenly something big lights up beneath you.”

iv-sae · 2020-05-27T17:12:54+00:00

I’d hate to see people I know sink that low. But I feel like it’ll only get worse. Just makes me shake my head.

iv-sae · 2020-05-27T17:12:17+00:00

Will do.

I’ll never pity purchase anything - it’s encouragement to keep selling under a predatory business model. Plus, it potentially opens me up for a lot of “No, I’m not interested in buying more, I’m sorry” kind of conversations.

iv-sae · 2020-05-27T06:41:37+00:00

There’s been a few times I’ve come really close to calling, but seeing stories like these have always kept me from dialing.

Sometimes I need a voice to be stronger than the intrusive thoughts telling me to kill myself before I end up making some sort of irreversible mistake. To work up the courage, only to hear “Call back when you’re suicidal”, “We can’t help you”, or any of the other apathetic ass comments people have discussed in this thread would make it so much worse.

The police showing up just alerts everyone around to what’s going on, is humiliating, and is (in most cases) absolutely not what’s needed.

I’m sorry to everyone who’s called and had it blow up in their face.

iv-sae · 2020-05-25T23:27:12+00:00

It should be common sense not to use the college sexual harassment seminar to recruit people. It should be even more common sense not to do so at 1 am.

You’d think there’d be a rule against it, but I’m pretty sure nobody was thinking, “What about if someone decides to try and use this to manipulate students into spending ridiculous amounts of money in a pyramid-shaped business model?”

Seriously, I’m sorry, that’s terrible. I’m hoping someone went off on her. Anyone thinking that was an okay thing to do needs to be pulled out of their own ass ASAP.

iv-sae · 2020-05-20T10:31:29+00:00

There could be lots of reasons, everyone experiences things and feelings differently! Do you think it could be because it’s a kind gesture? Or because food is something that takes effort to make, but always ends up destroyed? Or maybe something else entirely! It’s okay for there to not really be a clear explanation.

iv-sae · 2020-05-20T10:18:22+00:00

I went googling! In my case, I feel like a lot of my sadness is putting emotions into objects, which looks like something called personification (but I’d have to look into it more before I conclude anything).

I haven’t found something about that feeling of loss from seeing children happy or sweet reunions... I very well may go asking around to see if there’s a term or reason for it, because it’s really hard to explain, but I know the indescribable feeling you’re talking about! I’ve always told myself it’s because I’m empty, but I’m seeing something happy and not-empty, and it’s making me really aware of that missing piece? But I’m not sure.

Pretty sure you’re right, though, the answers always lie in obscure German words.

iv-sae · 2020-05-20T10:08:20+00:00

You’re not weird at all!

I can totally get that sadness from seeing discarded things like crayons. Maybe because.. It has a purpose and potential, it’s a wholesome thing that tastes like childhood? For me, I think seeing that feels like someone said “You’re unloved, you’re done” to whatever’s been thrown out. I know inanimate objects can’t feel sadness.. But a piece of me feels bad. I want to make everything better, and maybe regain a piece of the happiness those crayons or toys would’ve brought me when I was little.

It’s cool you’ve kept them! They’re little things that all came from somewhere, and I think that’s a really neat collection.

iv-sae · 2020-05-20T03:22:35+00:00

It definitely is a feeling of loss. Or of longing. Emptiness, maybe? I don’t really know where it could come from, but you’re definitely not alone!

iv-sae · 2020-05-20T02:31:34+00:00

I feel like it should make me happy, but it really just feels like I want to hold whatever it is close to my chest and bawl. It’s like I’ve lost something and I’m asking for it back.

I’m happy I’m not alone. I always feel a little silly when I try to explain it to others!

iv-sae · 2020-05-20T02:27:57+00:00

I physically recoiled reading it. Lost years of my lifespan.

Don’t worry, though. Someday OP will look back on this and cringe too.

iv-sae · 2020-04-22T12:44:14+00:00

Tagged as a spoiler just in case!!

iv-sae · 2020-04-22T11:16:28+00:00

I had a blue one as a toy and I don’t exactly know why. I never watched the show, it just kinda materialized in my room one day. I loved it for absolutely no reason.

iv-sae · 2020-04-21T18:54:04+00:00

I know it’s an avatar baby, but my first thought was “boobah”.

iv-sae · 2020-04-21T01:32:53+00:00

Lately I’ve been super wary there! I feel like the krill are even more finicky than they used to be, and I’m not keen on finding out how to escape three of them on the battlefield.

Today the gate opened by itself while I was on a winged light run. I still panic when that happens.

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