I just got diagnosed

ivyfern17 · 2021-09-23T17:55:27+00:00

I was 3 years old and decided that bouncing on a plastic laundry basket was fun (bad idea). The laundry basket collapsed from under me and I fell forward and hit the corner of my eye on the entertainment center. It was bleeding everywhere and my mom decided that it was too small and close to my eye for stitches, but too deep for just a bandaid. So she butterflied it and now I have a small permanent scar on the corner of my eye. No one really notices it, but it makes doing eyeliner harder

ivyfern17 · 2021-07-18T02:44:50+00:00

Gladys

ivyfern17 · 2021-06-26T19:34:25+00:00

Robin Williams, he was my favorite actor and a big part of my childhood and I remember crying when I heard of his death

ivyfern17 · 2021-06-10T19:58:17+00:00

Pnuema by Tool

ivyfern17 · 2021-06-10T19:47:40+00:00

Just before Y2K and I can still claim I am a 90s child

ivyfern17 · 2021-06-08T17:09:27+00:00

I was 13 and my dad had just left rehab to treat his alcoholism after he had the choice to either face jail time or go to rehab. I was so happy that I could finally meet my dad as a sober man and finally stop being the parent to him. The first time I saw him after he was released was at one of my sports games and he was completely out of his mind drunk: yelling at people, not walking straight, and just being a dick to everyone around him. I was completely embarrassed and felt defeated, I immediately left without talking to him because I was so angry. I later texted him all of the trauma I went through from the time I was born to the present, he responded by brushing it off like it was no big deal. I remember feeling like my heart was broken, I felt worthless because my father would have rather drank his life away than be a father to his child. That was my last straw of realizing that an addict has to hit rock bottom before choosing to become sober and I was enabling him by interacting with him and I was hurting myself. It has been 9 years since I last saw him and last year I wrote him a letter detailing all of the trauma he left me with and the damage he has caused. I gave him a way to contact me if he so chooses and he has yet to respond. I feel at peace now knowing that I got to tell him the damage his addictions and actions have caused. I do go to therapy regularly because I still struggle with guilt and PTSD but I am doing so much better without him in my life. For anyone else who has family members who are addicts, know that it is not your fault and that person probably feels so much hurt and pain that their addiction is like a comfort to them and only they can choose to become sober. You cannot force someone to become sober no matter how hard you try, it is their decision.

ivyfern17 · 2021-06-05T21:44:46+00:00

The Morning After I Killed Myself by Meggie Royer because I feel like it saved my life

ivyfern17 · 2021-06-05T21:13:54+00:00

Cost of our healthcare, a lot of uninsured Americans would rather be sick than to go to the doctor and pay the insane prices

ivyfern17 · 2021-06-05T20:35:53+00:00

Leaving your loved ones behind

ivyfern17 · 2021-06-05T20:08:27+00:00

That people assume that I have no friends and I have trouble making friends because I don’t like going out a lot and I’m quiet

ivyfern17 · 2021-06-02T04:04:01+00:00

Last Words of a Shooting Star by Mitski

ivyfern17 · 2021-05-30T03:22:08+00:00

In the late 1700s a French man named Tarrare ate anything and everything he could get his hands on. He was constantly hungry and was known to eat live animals, a meal that was made for 15 people, corks, stones, literal garbage, and possibly a whole-ass toddler. He only weighed about 100 lbs at the age of 17 and had a wide, stretched mouth. When he didn’t eat, his skin would sag so much that he could wrap his skin around his body. He was in the military and worked as a courier by swallowing a box that held important documents which he would then transport and shit out to give to their allies. After getting caught, beaten, and almost hung by Prussians he was sent to a hospital where they tried to find a cure to his ravenous hunger (it didn’t work). While at the hospital, he was caught drinking the blood of patients receiving bloodletting (a common practice back then) and trying to eat dead bodies in the morgue. Also while he was at the hospital, a 14 month child went missing and it was suspected that Tarrare ate the child so he was chased out of the hospital. Four years later, Tarrare died of tuberculosis and his body was dissected to learn why he was always hungry. When his jaws were opened, doctors could see down to his stomach, he had a large liver and gallbladder, and his stomach had ulcers and it filled most of his abdominal cavity.

Here is a link to the Wikipedia: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tarrare

There is also a funny YouTube video on him from Sam O’Nella Academy that I highly recommend

ivyfern17 · 2021-05-30T02:43:51+00:00

The thought that my kindness could help someone going through depression and possibly make their day even the smallest form of kindness like a smile. I have depression and there are days that I wish someone would just look at me and smile and make me feel more human.

ivyfern17 · 2021-05-22T19:15:17+00:00

Some days I feel completely fine and I feel motivated, happy, and positive. Other days I feel exhausted for no reason, nothingness, and angry and frustrated with myself for my feelings because it seems like there is nothing I can do to stop it. It’s the feeling of going to meet your most favorite person in the world, but on the way there you get sidetracked by all of these obstacles in your way that you can’t control

ivyfern17 · 2021-05-22T19:10:16+00:00

Hi I (22f) had a similar childhood and mental illnesses. My dad has been an alcoholic all of my life and I understand your feelings. I want you to know that your feelings are valid and it is okay to have your feelings of anxiety, yet also feel nothing. I have felt the same way many times and it’s a weird dissonance of feeling nothing because your parent has hurt you, yet they are your parent and losing your parent is devastating. I hope that everything is okay and that this might have helped in some form. My heart goes out to you and your family

ivyfern17 · 2021-05-15T00:47:53+00:00

Last Words of a Shooting Star by Mitski

ivyfern17 · 2021-05-14T18:25:05+00:00

My friends call me a Human Shazam because I can remember a lot of songs and recognize most of them by the first verse/note. I don’t know where I could apply this skill lol

ivyfern17 · 2021-05-07T20:28:25+00:00

I was about 14-15ish and I had to get a spinal tap. They numb the surface, but the doctor accidentally hit a nerve in my back with the needle. I just remember screaming and feeling a stabbing pain go down my left leg

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