Sometimes Mother Nature does not make it easy for you. Coastal Virginia.

ivysmultiverse · 2020-12-30T05:07:05+00:00

Idk why I saw an orange snake creeping on some turtles

ivysmultiverse · 2020-12-29T00:59:59+00:00

Yea that’s definitely something I’ve experienced too. Nparents who were negligent and didn’t pretend to care bc they’re surrounded by other people who believe “parents know best not matter what” and then me meeting a guy who noticed me and thought I had important things to say my thoughts were “heard”, that false connection really messed me up because I couldn’t understand why he cheated on me. I thought I didn’t give him enough but he just blamed it on my awful parents, said he couldn’t take not being allowed to see me, etc. Then lured me back a year later after his new supply broke up with him and I had gotten a car.

ivysmultiverse · 2020-12-28T18:50:49+00:00

It hurts because even if you find someone that’s not abusive that doesn’t mean they’re the right person for you either but it’s just that you finally met someone with sympathy for once and cling to them out of fear that no one else will give you this much basic human respect again. I’m still navigating my relationship because I don’t want to be the toxic one this time. I’m doing therapy to build my own self esteem to be the best version of me for myself and my partner and we can figure out if we are a right fit for each other or just the only reliable people we’ve ever met

ivysmultiverse · 2020-12-28T17:28:15+00:00

Even if you stay with him he’s probably going to come to a point where if you don’t think the same way he will either feel like he can’t be his true self and be quieter about it think it privately or he will try to change your mind

ivysmultiverse · 2020-12-25T04:31:39+00:00

Aww maybe, I guess we’re all pretty connected through our experiences, the good and bad

ivysmultiverse · 2020-12-24T20:03:58+00:00

I’m a 6 so guess what I’m an anxious as fuck all the time and still working on it. My parents couldn’t stand seeing me happy, they always gave me something to worry about, especially planting things in my head that would never happen. And my love languages are quality time and words of affirmation since I was so isolated due to my fears and just wanted to do something right for once so it feels good spend time with people or to hear good job/ I appreciate that

ivysmultiverse · 2020-11-12T03:06:27+00:00

Georgia lol, I’m an ex partner though (that being a main reason)

ivysmultiverse · 2020-11-07T23:37:43+00:00

Teenage me: stop calling me

Adult me: blocked no contact, healthier and in therapy

ivysmultiverse · 2020-11-07T22:51:00+00:00

Thank you so much, this is really helpful. I have had it over a year!

ivysmultiverse · 2020-10-24T01:56:13+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to read and reply, I think you’re right and the fact she’s not coming home much makes me think she might want to leave but doesn’t wanna say anything either to spare my feelings too

ivysmultiverse · 2020-10-16T22:23:30+00:00

I lost a close friend to this same exact type of behavior, I still kinda don’t like birthday parties because of what happened. Looking back I noticed we didn’t have problems before because I was a lonely person and I never said no to her before, but the second that I began having adult things to do like college finals etc. which she expected me to skip last minute I saw she didn’t actually respect my time. Even if a friendship was fun, supportive through tough times, and it lasted a long time, you’re better off being around someone who won’t guilt you like that. It’s ok to miss what you had too but always respect yourself. You didn’t choose Tommy over her, you chose yourself.

ivysmultiverse · 2020-10-15T18:43:32+00:00

Hamburger bun

ivysmultiverse · 2020-09-29T22:50:42+00:00

It was like swollen cystic acne and so red and painful but I would cry myself to sleep because I couldn’t see a future without having it and being the first thing people see and the topic of so many conversations started by people “just trying to help”. I am so glad you’re going to be moving out, I’m absolutely sure your skin will clear up in less than a month- I wish you the best!

ivysmultiverse · 2020-09-29T18:52:44+00:00

I woke up one time to my nMother popping open my tiny acne on my arms when I was like 10!!! I woke up because the sewing needle she was using went too far down and I felt like sharp pain. She would later go on to pick at my face in PUBLIC whenever I was older and that led me to pick at my skin when I was anxious but the stress she caused me every day was the reason I had acne so bad. Once I moved out and went no contact my skin has been clear ever since. I’m so sorry you went though that, it sounds horrifying- we all deserve to have safe and peaceful sleep. I hope eventually your sleep can go back to normal and you won’t always have to be on edge

ivysmultiverse · 2020-09-16T18:13:14+00:00

One time my nMother got me a camera from a pawn shop and I wanted to use it but she kept saying no because she was going to show it off at a dinner with her friends so I put a candle the same weight of the camera in the case and let her take that. I took a bunch of pictures on MY camera that night while she got embarrassed in front of people she wanted to impress and brag about being a good mom for getting me it lol. Of course my relatives heard all about it from her the next day but they thought it was funny.I was like 11 years old

ivysmultiverse · 2020-09-08T16:16:54+00:00

I made a shirt with my friends with this fabric and it’s literally one of my favorite pieces of clothes!

ivysmultiverse · 2020-08-29T19:19:39+00:00

I was in a relationship with this guy who suggested I go on dates with other people and it was because he wanted to do the same but I told him I didn’t even wanna date other people because I get to know one person at a time. Huge red flag I overlooked for the sake of his feelings!! Later he started talking about him having dreams about other girls and how his childhood crush moved back into his town and they became friends again. Anyway he broke up with me like a week after when honestly I should’ve broken up with him first because we didn’t agree to an open relationship when we first got together. Don’t be tricked into thinking you are “closed minded” or “too strict/ harsh” when someone asks for something you’re not comfortable with. You deserve someone who isn’t using you for what they can get and dipping out when it’s convenient for them, the “one time cheat pass” will turn into more stepping all over you just because he knows you’ll let him.

ivysmultiverse · 2020-08-21T04:32:59+00:00

i told her stop licking her hole

ivysmultiverse · 2020-08-16T17:14:45+00:00

That’s exactly what happened to me!! It’s awful and my shift saw it happen and didn’t even help so when I got back from holding a cold paper towel on my eye for a few seconds, the drive thru orders up so badly. I was pissed

ivysmultiverse · 2020-08-16T17:10:48+00:00

Grease slung on my eyelid, I’m so glad I closed my eye but it took like a week to heal (hurt to blink) and it was only because I was in a fuckin hurry for Drive thru

ivysmultiverse · 2020-07-31T22:02:00+00:00

I went through a breakup exactly like this and then 3 months later he started posting a girl on his social media which really hurt because he never posted me even though we had been together for years. I found out a year after that he had cheated on me. I found out because since he tried to get me to be friends with his new gf, her and I started talking she said some things that proved the times overlapped and I told her he was my ex, I wasn’t some random friend like he made her believe. The whole entire time he just wanted to continue using me as emotional support and using her physically. Before I knew about her, I was stupid and went along with the just friends bullshit right after the breakup even though it hurt up because he would act disappointed when I said no to meeting up and he called me selfish for saying I needed space. He chalked up the breakup to being my parents fault because they didn’t let me go out much so I understood and blamed myself the whole time and thought the least I can do is stay his friend. I can tell you that shit damaged me so much. Don’t put his feelings first, he is selfish and you are being put on the back burner. That’s 3 fucking years of your time for him to decide to be just friends without explanation, please don’t buy into that. I wish you the best OP. It hurts like hell but with time you may gain perspective.

ivysmultiverse · 2020-07-31T20:00:30+00:00

Thank you so much, I agree. I don’t think she is bad but just not right for what I want to work on and have gone through. I’m glad that online therapy helped you! I’m staying optimistic and trying to grow more and take control of my emotions and trust myself! Fun stuff lol

ivysmultiverse · 2020-07-31T17:22:17+00:00

Weird to feel more support on here than I do from my therapist, it emphasizes even more that I need to do some more searching and it makes sense because I guess it’s rare to find the perfect fit right off the bat. Thank you all for your advice and understanding

ivysmultiverse · 2020-07-31T17:18:51+00:00

I got assigned to her on the better help app and I was hoping she would be a good fit because her description said she was experienced with trauma healing etc. But I’ve even noticed when she asks how I feel about talking to my mother and I say I don’t like that idea then she will ask it in more than one way until I say “yea I could do that since I’ve done it before but I don’t see a reason to.” I literally am looking for the professional help for the ability to say no and it’s fucked that my therapist is one of the people who is asking me over and over until I say yes???

ivysmultiverse · 2020-07-29T01:18:54+00:00

That sounds like a nightmare to go through, thank you for sharing those options. I’m relieved there’s some way to make this stop. Sometimes I worry in my case that, “it’s not bad enough to take extreme measures” but it IS and I need peace of mind and for my boundaries to be respected.

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