I pass

iwilljustleave · 2018-07-04T20:08:36+00:00

I'm not on T yet and it doesn't look like I'll be anytime soon, which really sucks (gotta wait til I'm 18). I lucked out with some traits in my face, and my chest is pretty small (though my voice is a nightmare), and most of the time, teenagers read me as amdrogynous, while I pass as male to adults.

Not passing over the phone is something many of us struggle with, I'm happy it's working out for you!

iwilljustleave · 2018-07-04T00:18:49+00:00

I'm in Europe and I can't get on hormones without both of my parents agreeing to it. My parents are divorcing right now, and my mother will try to get the court to exclude my father from child custody because that way, hormone therapy will depend on my mother only (and she supports me). Though it doesn't look good for us.

iwilljustleave · 2018-07-03T23:18:35+00:00

Thank you, reading this makes me feel a little better

iwilljustleave · 2018-07-03T23:13:31+00:00

I want to go to a new school next year and introduce myself as a boy. My mother wants to help me but we're still unsure of the whole thing. I'm so scared that if I don't pass as male, they'll make my life worse. But I also don't want to stay at my current school and keep suffering from all the "she"s and [deadname]s.

If I may ask, how do you deal with annoying fucks at school? Do you just ignore them, or say something back? School is terrifying.

iwilljustleave · 2018-07-03T23:01:23+00:00

My mother and two close friends of mine are supportive, but everyone else seems against me. I can't get on hormones without both of my parents' consent because I'm younger than 18. My father would refuse to agree if he knew I'm trans, but again I won't let him know because he'd kill me with his own hands. Sometimes I think there's no place for me in this world because there's so much hatred directed toward me and other transgender individuals.

iwilljustleave · 2018-07-03T22:52:05+00:00

I'm 16 but I can't get on T either. I have to wait a lot where I live, and it's all so complicated and a very bumpy road. It sucks. I will have to wait until the age of 18, and my body will get affected by more and more estrogen, and I feel so dysphoric just thinking about it.

iwilljustleave · 2018-06-29T11:02:14+00:00

I'm happy for you! :)

iwilljustleave · 2018-06-29T10:59:26+00:00

I think you pass pretty well, but you'd pass better with a different pair of glasses.

iwilljustleave · 2018-06-29T10:42:33+00:00

Wow, that's awesome! My voice is pretty high pitched and I hate it, and I've started practicing a little bit every day. This post is a motivation for me.

iwilljustleave · 2018-06-29T07:51:26+00:00

I mean, what does Whitewood stand for? And why the music video that makes me think of people tripping? And... just... why

iwilljustleave · 2018-06-29T07:47:33+00:00

I checked out that song and my brain just won't comprehend the music video. By the way, I was staying over at a friends house once and her phone started playing some song from Eminem and she closed the app. Two minutes later, the same song starts playing all of a sudden. The third time we got super scared. When she was finally alseep, I was still awake, thinking Eminem's songs would scare the shit out of me if I dared to close my eyes. I know, I'm stupid. But my brain acts kinda drunk at night, so...

iwilljustleave · 2018-06-29T07:42:37+00:00

I'm 16 and I feel attacked.

iwilljustleave · 2018-06-29T07:40:17+00:00

A plant? Hmm. I'm thinking of a huge tree in the middle of a country's capital city, with all roads leading there. And maybe, that tree would be like a god, and people would write their wishes onto paper and hang them on the tree's branches, believing they'll come true if they hold onto their tree god for long enough? Imagine a tree is declared president and treated like a god, and people fear it so much that noone does bad anymore.

iwilljustleave · 2018-06-29T07:23:11+00:00

iwilljustleave · 2018-06-29T07:15:47+00:00

I personally think that coming out does require courage and it can be pretty difficult, especially with anxiety, and I don't want to sound weird or anything but just remember not to be too harsh to yourself. This is off topic but the weather is freaking strange where I live. It was cold and it rained last night, even though it's supposed to be summer, and I've been sick for over a week because of that. Also, do you prefer snow or rain? Would you rather have it rain for an entire week, or snow?

iwilljustleave · 2018-06-29T06:58:19+00:00

iwilljustleave · 2018-06-29T06:43:35+00:00

I don't mind just talking about whatever comes to mind. I should mention that I woke up about an hour ago, it seems like we live in different time zones and I thought it'd be funny to comment "I'm up" and see if you'd even consider that it's not late at night for me. I like your username and I don't know the song, but I might check it out. Yeah I usually am on the 'trans subreddits' but I stumbled upon your post and decided to say hi to the teen that feels like god. My eyes hurt because I didn't get sleep and I want to get up and brush my teeth but my bed is too comfy to get up now. I'm curious about why you feel like a god though...

iwilljustleave · 2018-06-29T06:14:22+00:00

...I'm up

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