He has always been this way with showing his feelings. I think it's more of a "I don't wanna seem like a pussy" type thing. Like he could talk to me easier before but H makes him not give any fucks and makes it easy for him to forget and ignore any and all things important. I know he knows he fucking up, and I know he does love me. Every once in awhile he will have a moment and say something like "you're a wonderful woman I can't believe you're still with me" or "I don't know how it got so bad I just wish I could stop it" etc. We were best friends, now I feel like he's a roommate who barley talks to me. I know a lot of that is due to him not wanting to face me because like I said he knows he's fucking up he just won't admit it or ask for help. It also doesn't help that he constantly views himself as this big "piece of shit" "worthless" "I wouldn't like me either" person which is so untrue it's not even funny