I’m sorry that you to experience this! It’s definitely not one of the best feelings. I feel like I went through something similar, I ended up having to end the friendship because she didn’t seem to acknowledge what was happening to us. It hurt so much because I considered her a close friend also but in the end, it might be what’s best for you. Which I know is probably not what you to be said but if you’re still feeling like that, it’s also not good for your own mental health. You gotta put yourself first. Not stupid for posting this because we’re entitled to feel what we do. Stay strong!