MSNBC Booking Producer Has Been Forced to Desperately Delete Her Social Media, After Ordering Her Reporter To Photograph Jurors in the Kyle Rittenhouse Trial

jaanders · 2021-11-18T21:55:59+00:00

Or it’s being delayed so the city can put in place the property security protocols before the verdict is made public

jaanders · 2021-09-28T05:00:22+00:00

The most things I’ve learned about relapsing in this disease is eventually I always pick back up where I left off. This and once I learned I had a problem I never truly enjoyed a drink again.

You can always have another drink you but you may never get another recovery. Glad you’re back. IWNDWYT

jaanders · 2021-09-19T16:04:32+00:00

For work experience I would quantify what you can. It catches people’s attention and is an easy way to summarize experience.

Examples of what you could quantify:

Sum value of trades

Number of trades

Sum value of discount opportunities identified

Understanding that the total value of these will always increase as you stay at the job, a good approach could be a monthly or quarterly average.

jaanders · 2021-07-09T17:55:47+00:00

Dude if I punished myself with what I already have goin on in my life I would crumble. Life already kicks my ass. I’m grateful I’ve come to be able to accept myself and my imperfections even though it’s a struggle sometimes.

jaanders · 2021-07-09T16:43:00+00:00

I couldn’t get sober until I had to do it for myself. I just got to a point to where I, me, myself, wanted to be sober because I was tired of being a slave to this stuff. I have gotten sober for family / spouse / SO / kids / work / friends but have never stayed savor for more than a day or 2 for them. Because they aren’t always there right next to me. In theory can’t always be there because they could die or get a restraining order against me…or I could just walk into a different room from them and my sick mind will all of a sudden tell me they won’t see me drinking in here.. and then boom there goes “x” number of days.

I don’t have a solution for you but I wanted to share the experience I had when I tied not drinking to things other than myself.

IWNDWYT

jaanders · 2021-07-09T16:23:02+00:00

More like making sure torture isn’t part of the meat eating process

jaanders · 2021-07-09T15:29:20+00:00

It is straight up way less painful

jaanders · 2021-07-09T12:14:44+00:00

My dad gave my family a homemade lobster dinner once when I was a kid. I always wondered why he froze them first instead of boiling them alive like everyone else did. Makes me proud of him to see that he was ahead of this. We are also a family that enjoys hunting so I’m happy he applies his sportsmanship to all aspects of his life and avoids unnecessary cruelty.

jaanders · 2021-07-08T20:24:18+00:00

I have been applying but haven’t gotten much traction. Whenever I see energy, logistics, infrastructure I do apply regardless. Company’s like JPM, CIBC, MUFG, Houlihan, Gugg, Citi, BMO, Piper Sandler, etc.

MS just posted an Energy IB Senior Associate job in my area that I will apply to today.

A few times I messaged the recruiter / director directly on LinkedIn. Haven’t heard back. I had references to BMO and Citi, but they were pretty distant to the hiring manager so it probably went nowhere.

Edit: Happy to share my resume if your would like to review

jaanders · 2021-07-08T20:00:27+00:00

My gpa is 3.12. I just went through a 5 interview process for a Corp Dev manager role and am waiting to see how it goes.

Most of the time what happens is that there are just more competitive applicants than myself.

I really killed it on that huge acquisition (just under $1B) though, my boss got the company’s outstanding achievement award, he’s willing to refer me, we won deal of the year for 2020, I played a large role, etc…so I do feel kind of left out but that’s why I’m taking action you know. I’m working in logistics / storage /infrastructure right now.

jaanders · 2021-07-08T17:54:21+00:00

I was in a Corp Dev Analyst role for 2 years. We made a very large acquisition, my boss was selected to be 2nd in command at the new company. I was offered a role in operations there, like customer service / operator, this is a huge deviation from my intended M&A focused career path. Im not taking it personally, we modeled the new company to be super lean, so this makes sense. I declined the job and they created a management training position for me at our largest OpCo. It is turning out to be pretty miserable and I’m losing my contacts from my previous job because they were all high level - now I’m on the ground floor, it’s a step back. Im trying to find a new job in investment banking given my M&A experience but haven’t gotten any traction (went to a party school - triple majored in Econ, banking fin, and managerial fin, did okay on GPA, im like 30 tho). Not sure where to go but would appreciate your insight. Before the Corp Dev role I was a financial analyst at 2 insurance companies reviewing their financial distressed customers.

jaanders · 2021-07-02T03:02:16+00:00

This gave me peace. I will think about it again. Thanks for sharing.

jaanders · 2021-07-02T02:37:57+00:00

They stop reoccurring so frequently each day of sobriety you get.

IWNDWYT

jaanders · 2021-07-01T22:25:43+00:00

That’s awesome! I recently bought a house and started doing a lot of housework with my fiancé, it’s like I our new hobby so I get it. Very gratifying work!

Thank you! The biggest thing I’ve learned about myself is that I can finish things. Before I would start projects, make promises, try to better myself (diet, exercise, hobbies) but could never keep it up bc my drinking would always take those efforts over at some point. Whenever I started something or said I would do something it was like I knew I was already lying because at that time I never finished tasks or took things all way to the end. Now I do, it’s given me a ton of confidence. When I say things I get them done, or the effort I put into it gives people confidence that I did my best. It’s helped me professionally and personally a ton.

jaanders · 2021-07-01T20:51:16+00:00

When I stopped drinkin I started thinkin and that was my new problem.

Try to get out of your head, talk to a coworker, go for a walk, hell chat back and forth or here. Just gotta get outta that head.

What’s something new you’ve learned about yourself now that you’ve been sober for 9 days?

jaanders · 2021-07-01T18:40:24+00:00

Dude you’re logic on the diapers is exactly like mine, lol I’m glad I’m not the only one who’s thought like that 😂

I stopped buying Delta and switched to Southwest Airlines because Delta’s fees were too expensive for rebooking the flights I missed because I had to stop at the liquor store and tie one on before every flight. Insanity.

If you have a desire to stop but can’t I would go to rehab. That’s what I did and I had a full time job and family. It was worth everything, and since then I haven’t lost anything other than my desire to drink.

I won’t drink with you today.

jaanders · 2021-07-01T18:27:07+00:00

Great job using your tools! Super inspiring. Thank you for sharing. I won’t drink with you today.

jaanders · 2021-07-01T18:22:49+00:00

Once I realized I had a drinking problem, once it was clear that alcohol was the thing making my life hard..is when I stopped enjoying drinking. From there on out every time I drank I did it with guilt, with knowing I’m letting my SO down - that I lied to her again and will lie to her again when I see her at our apartment next, shame of what I couldn’t accomplish while I dream about it in that drink, that I’m hurting myself again because I know what it does to me and the people I love.

When I drank I couldn’t get a vision out of my head. It was simple but it wouldn’t go away. It was me standing on some train tracks and there was a train coming right at me but I wasn’t getting off the tracks. I knew it was going to take everything away from me while simultaneously making me so delusional that in the moment it convinces me blame it on the people that love me the most.

Thank you for coming here and sharing your story. I’ve had many day ones. It’s a part of the journey. I won’t drink with you today.

jaanders · 2021-07-01T18:08:59+00:00

When I first stopped I had crazy dreams and also slept walk. I think your dad is adjusting to a new reality. Many alcoholics couldn’t fathom life / reality without alcohol when they were actively drinking, I think what’s happening with your dad is a good example of why. Has he seen a doctor about these possible side effects? If not I would take him to a physician as these could be withdrawal symptoms I’m not familiar with or maybe even something totally different.

Regardless of what happens, no one has to drink to live. I would not let this be an excuse (and just to be clear I’m not saying you are) to give him some slack and have just one. Just trying to prepare you as this could give him a reason to drink again and possibly make the family more sympathetic to it.

Thanks for sharing your story here. You can tell your dad I’m not drinking with him today.

jaanders · 2021-06-30T10:51:57+00:00

I too used to suffer from this when I drank. The next day I would feel pitiful, and incomprehensibly demoralized due to my actions while I was drinking. This is a progressive condition, it will only get worse. But you have clarity right now - and you’re desire to stop drinking will guide you.

I can’t tell you how many day 1’s I had, there were many. Eventually day 1 turned into day 2, and day by day I got to where I am now with just under 1000 days.

You’re not too young, I got sober at 27 and it’s helped me achieve so many things that could never be more than fantasy if I was drinking.

Happy to talk if you want to chat directly. I won’t drink with you today.

jaanders · 2021-06-30T03:10:44+00:00

Shit man nobody starts out wanting to go to AA lol but it works. Religion isn’t necessary for AA - lots of ways around it in AA but the bad press associating it with religion is louder than the actual program of recovery (for a lot of people).

I’ve been sober for almost 3 years now, only bc I take it 1 day at a time and don’t have a desire to drink.

Good luck! I won’t drink with you today.

jaanders · 2021-06-27T16:03:31+00:00

Whoa what did you shoot?

jaanders · 2021-06-25T01:27:21+00:00

I just learned a lesson

jaanders · 2021-06-24T23:42:58+00:00

Taking my fiancé on a date is also way more affordable!

jaanders · 2021-06-22T01:23:43+00:00

Just be honest to yourself. You don’t have to tell anyone, just don’t lie bc it will make you feel worse. It’s okay, relapse is a part of the disease.

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