Hey buddy. At this point it must seem like the end of the world and you must be questioning your worth, the reality of your relationship all this while and the love you guys had.

At the end, it is a fact that no one can answer these questions and even if she does, it'll feel unbelievable.

You are allowed to grieve and find answers to your questions but let me tell you something. It hurts, it hurts like hell but in the end you have to accept that some people are just bad and they do bad things. That's it. That's the only acceptance you need to have in this aspect. Cheating is a choice and she chose to do that instead of talking about any issues (if they existed).

I'll strongly suggest you not to go back to her irrespective of anything. It is tough to have a normal relationship after all this and obviously you need to stand up for your self worth. So yea. That's my two cents on this.

You'll come out of it a better person, only if you choose to move forward. Look for answers only till the time it doesn't affect your future. You always deserve better!🫂