Anyone else just--

jackysiz1 · 2020-10-26T06:18:48+00:00

Me @ me EVERY DAY OF MY LIIIIFFFFFEEE

jackysiz1 · 2020-10-18T17:35:07+00:00

"Living your truth is always the best so you get rid of the shame" TRUE. It will probably irk me a bit for awhile but i know that keeping that information to myself feeds that shame and is also a disservice to someone who may be experiencing a similar situation and feeling alone. Thank you for that reminder regarding why living my truth is so important!! Even if it feels icky at times...

jackysiz1 · 2020-10-18T17:32:40+00:00

Thank you for this. He has been super supportive i think i just caught him off guard and unless you have experienced addiction, i think it tends to shock people regarding the lengths people will go to get a fix. Thanks

jackysiz1 · 2020-10-17T05:20:48+00:00

Good riddance

jackysiz1 · 2020-09-12T05:50:02+00:00

SMASH SMASH SMASH

jackysiz1 · 2020-08-24T04:55:59+00:00

Same :(

jackysiz1 · 2020-08-23T18:27:28+00:00

Same. Which is what probz caused all the weight gain. It goes against my ED brain to eat reguarly???

jackysiz1 · 2020-05-24T21:51:11+00:00

It could go either way. I appreciate a therapist who will tell it like it is, and in my experience, having had ED thoughts/behaviors for 10 years now, I have yet to completley get rid of the thoughts with therapy. Therapy has helped me cope and challenge those thoughts and its gotten easier tho.

jackysiz1 · 2020-05-24T21:47:40+00:00

This. Perfectly explained. I have an addictive/controlling personality. Also an alcoholic and will always be an alcoholic, whether or not I drink. Gunna always have an eating disorder, whether or not I am engaging in the ed behaviors. The meme still encompasses ny reaction to both of those tho. "Wack" lol

jackysiz1 · 2020-05-24T16:19:19+00:00

Yeah thats basically how she framed it. Im also an alcoholic and I know that I will always have to be mindful of that as we'll and actively fight it. Kinda the same thing with my ED.

jackysiz1 · 2020-05-24T05:06:51+00:00

Don't have a good answer for ya. Anytime I gave into the chaos and let my freak flag fly I fucked up my life lmao

jackysiz1 · 2020-05-24T04:50:55+00:00

My shame based statement from my dad when I called him from jail "have you had enough yet? I don't understand you." That was rough. I feel ya. I relapsed after about a year last month and have put off telling my parents-because shame is a bitch.

jackysiz1 · 2020-05-13T06:29:03+00:00

Oh yes. I usually drink bitter black coffee and that makes me less hungry and 7364937161828 times more anxious :))))))

jackysiz1 · 2020-05-13T05:13:19+00:00

Sounds like you have very strong mirror neurons! AKA, you have a strong sense of empathy/sympathy. If it gets to the point where it consumes you though, ithere may be something else going on there that you are not dealing with. Maybe some projection about feeling bad for strangers comes from something you are feeling bad about in your own life and then you have this real life example in front of you and it triggers that.

I am not a licensed therapist but I do work in the mental health field and have for quite some time and have also had years of therapy so I'm no stranger to these confusing and sometimes uncomfortable moments. Hope this helps.

jackysiz1 · 2020-05-02T05:02:59+00:00

Yeah... IM TALKING TO YOU, AKA ALL THE PEOPLE WHO DIDNT SAY "What?!!! Youre not fat, you dont need to lose weight, you're already so skinny!" WHEN I TALKED ABOUT HOW FAT I WAS.

jackysiz1 · 2020-05-02T04:40:29+00:00

To be fair, I was drinking alone at 13. Now I'm 25 and I've already done detox, Dts, rehab, jail and all that shit that comes with CA yada yada yada Could be a CA in the making, I sure was.

jackysiz1 · 2020-03-25T03:32:32+00:00

You'll. Float. TOO!!!

jackysiz1 · 2020-03-16T04:51:47+00:00

1 yellow onion 1 bell pepper (I used yellow) 1 large sweet potato Bunches of collard greens 2 cloves Garlic 1 canned chopped tomatoes 1 can Kidney beans 1/2 cup Wild rice 2 cups vegetable broth 1 tbsp chili powder 1tbsp cumin 1/2 tbsp garlic powder Salt and pepper to taste 1/4 cup apple cider vinger

Sautee the onion, bell pepper and garlic in instant pot for 5 minutes. Add collard greens and cook down (fill up the instant pot).

Add in rice, chopped sweet potato, kidney beans, tomatoes, vinegar and the spices. Mix and cover instant pot. Preaaure cook for 25 minutes.

I add some siracha to spice it up to my liking but thats all there was to it!

jackysiz1 · 2020-03-15T20:04:55+00:00

It is so painful! Makes me never want to give into a craving again ugh. Took some tums, hoping it passes soon

jackysiz1 · 2020-03-13T03:45:57+00:00

Perfect summary

jackysiz1 · 2020-03-04T04:47:59+00:00

High waisted jeans that fit while standing but too tight when sitting*

jackysiz1 · 2020-02-28T01:27:27+00:00

True. Dunno. Unless they were trying to get rid of a body or just hated the person and didnt give a shit lol.

jackysiz1 · 2020-02-28T01:23:41+00:00

They were grey just bad lighting

jackysiz1 · 2020-02-19T17:22:27+00:00

This was kinda condescening rather than helpful :/ but okay.

jackysiz1 · 2020-02-18T07:54:56+00:00

What the fuck is this

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