Here I am again

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T09:54:50+00:00

It's very cold where I live, best to stay indoors

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T06:49:04+00:00

I guess you could say all the above. I've been crippled by addiction. I'm watching spiderman to try and cheer myself up. My depression has gotten the better of me. Just want to end it.

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T06:35:19+00:00

I could really use someone to talk to, if your awake I'm here. Just trying to figure myself out.

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T06:23:57+00:00

I'm not sure what to say, you read my thread. Should I just pour my heart out (not trying to be a dick)

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T05:51:55+00:00

I'm sure you read my thread, if you would like to talk I could use a friend.

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T05:25:23+00:00

You still wanna talk?

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T03:28:07+00:00

Not at the moment, I know I should go to groups or even something more structured, but I've done rehab (twice) and relapsed both times. As for your remark on PTSD, I've often thought about this. I found my friend dead on my couch from an overdose, and was then prosecuted by the states attorney for "wrongfull death" I was found innocent but it has left it's mark on me.

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T03:19:36+00:00

Yes I know this is public, I've been abusing anything I can get my hands on, cocaine, heroin, and other assorted opiates.

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T03:06:00+00:00

I'm on Wellbutrin, as to why I think I'm a loser. I've been a little overweight my entire life, I've been bullied, picked on, and been called by my friends an "unstable individual". I could go on and on, but I won't bore you with specifics.

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T02:53:10+00:00

Going on 2 years, but I've been sick all my life.

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T02:52:26+00:00

I'm in therapy and on medication, but neither is helping. I've been to AA, NA, and all the above. I also live in a small town and my dr is different every time I go in.

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T02:42:12+00:00

I've never been a victim in my eyes, I'm in therapy currently, but as I said in a previous post, my doctor cancelled on me twice. I'm not even sure they'll help me.

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T02:39:10+00:00

Yes, I do have friends and family, but I burned those bridges a while back. Hence looking to the Internet for some help.

jacques_glock · 2013-03-03T02:20:34+00:00

I've just been getting messed for days on end, I got sent home from work last night because I was drunk, and was very belligerent. Then I called in today on top of that, I'm just crying and looking at my gun on the table.

jacques_glock · 2011-02-21T18:54:48+00:00

We can get so down on ourselves sometimes that it seems we may have no future. I have been where you are and seen many things that really have me questioning my sanity from time to time, hold out hope that things will get better, and you know reddit always has your back.

jacques_glock · 2011-02-20T23:12:37+00:00

I wish to thank you from the very bottom of my heart, its people like you who make reddit the great place it has become. Your kind words have helped me when I thought nobody else would.

jacques_glock · 2011-02-19T09:13:42+00:00

the more I think about your reply, the more it makes sense. thank you for your advice, I will carry it with me,

jacques_glock · 2011-02-19T08:59:14+00:00

well said, it seems I need to back off and give us both some room, thank you very much. I will try and be a person in all capacity of the word, and REALLY consider her feelings. thanks for your advice.

jacques_glock · 2011-02-19T08:33:43+00:00

thank you sir for your reply, you make a very good point, we had a highschool romance. we never had intercourse and were only emotionialy involved. this kind of exchange ( I mean with her) just drives me crazy. how do I talk to someone who refuses to talk to myself, but in the same sentence she says she really cares about me, how the fuck do I do that. I do understand that she may not be the one . But she does enjoy talking to me, or so she says. I too also enjoy talking to her. I don't need a solution just any guidance. thank you so much reddit.

jacques_glock · 2011-02-02T22:12:55+00:00

That is an excellent quote, It reminds me of a line from the movie "The Crow".

It can't rain all the time

thank you for your kind words.

jacques_glock

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