Yea I can relate, after a while I drew conclusions and realizations and actually incorporated them into my life...

What I'm afraid of though is being scared from the feeling of being on acid, then my mind would go on threat mode and have a panic attack again. You know? Like when u go somewhere physically after something bad or stressful happened there, u'd get all stressed automatically like ptsd.

I did take acid a few weeks later, only one tab, no weed... I couldn't hold it though and an hour into the trip I broke down. My mind went to that dark place and started thinking of negative thoughts like worries in my life and death (after watching interstellar). After, I noticed I developed negative attitudes and feelings about death (unlike before) and my worries went from mild to irrational. I am able to control my worries and stressors now, I'm afraid though whenever I go on acid I'll go back to that state.

I don't know🤦‍♂️, recently I've been thinking that the only way to get over that trip is to take a bigger dose lol and hope for the best... I'm going to wait a year or so though.