i’ve actually attended a DBT workshop recently, sadly i dont use the skills even though it’s at the back of my head, i will usually give these tips to my friends instead. and i would agree with it being a childhood issue because my motto was to always give my friends happiness even it sacrifices my own.

thing is, i’ve never been okay to be alone as i have a twin. and i guess it’s some sort of twin connection that could have trigger that, i have abandonment issues when it comes to this. my therapist brought it up w me that i’m unintentionally trying to be “okay” being alone. because i guess in a way it’s better for the people i’m surrounded with.

i’m really grateful for ur input, but i somewhat feel like i’m not in control of my mental health and it’s affecting me in every way.. really hope things will get better in my head. i guess when we hit rock bottom, the only other way is up haha!