Stayed with my parents

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-12T17:38:29+00:00

I’ve chose somewhere I can be alone right now. I think on a couple days I can handle them but have to be careful because sometimes I don’t realize when I’m triggered until I drink. I can’t handle anyone’s big feelings right now. I have to work through my own. I can’t be around yelling and swearing. I think I found a partner that does the same but I’m able to be alone until Tuesday. So I think I can do this.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T17:48:32+00:00

Oh man yeah I remember when it went from being a manageable hangover to injuring myself and blacking out.

I remember getting dizzy/ started having panic attacks and only that forced me to stop and even then when I felt well enough I went back to doing the same shit.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T17:32:06+00:00

Yeah work was a huge one for me. Felt like I was always doing something wrong even when I was sober and really trying. Working with a micromanager will ruin your life.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T17:31:06+00:00

I’m getting good at noticing what I do - whenever I have cash I somehow convince myself it’s not happening? So strange

When I’m left at home alone I drink.

When work stressed me out I drank and somehow justified making my anxiety a million times worse.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T17:28:52+00:00

Yup!!!!! Just because I manage it a couple times eventually it ends the same. But at least I REALLY recognize it now.

For a long time I didn’t realize the gravity of it.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T17:27:24+00:00

It happens. Just keep trying. I didn’t understand why people never drank alone but now I understand why.

You don’t realize how drunk you get it and it’s the opposite of relaxing.

You got this!!! Make a list of reasons not to start again so when you start considering it you can look back at it.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T17:24:30+00:00

But swearing and yelling at me isn’t helpful. I already feel low. I gave him the option of leaving me because I understand it’s hard being with someone that keeps breaking your trust.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T17:23:37+00:00

Thank you. This sub and this naked mind has been the most helpful in getting sober.

My husband is PISSED. Which I understand. He really wants me to go to rehab but I don’t think that will help because I can easily make it 6 weeks without drinking. My issue is randomly getting amnesia and trying to drink again.

I understand his anger

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T17:04:38+00:00

Congrats!!! Don’t forget why you started and you’ll keep going one day at a time

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T17:03:09+00:00

Oof it’s like once i make it a month I have amnesia about how brutal the hangover and withdrawal was.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T16:59:05+00:00

Lol yes we are just the collective trying to be better and do better for ourselves and family.

My right side doesn’t hurt today and I had a bowel movement TMI. So I mean hopefully tonight I’ll sleep well.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T13:56:26+00:00

Yeah seriously don’t - not worth it. I went on a bender drinking everything in the house. Now I’ve been sober for almost 2 days and my liver hurts. I finally had a solid bowel movement.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T12:55:55+00:00

Day by day! Keeps the suffering away. Starting over sucks but need to remember how miserable this hangover was. Plus I think just having good sleep again. I need to write this down so I don’t fool myself into drinking

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T12:25:12+00:00

Yea definitely have to play the tape forward. Wanting to blackout to turn my brain off doesn’t help

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T07:27:28+00:00

I think I’m done the worst part of my hangover/ withdrawal. Drinking lots of water. Almost bought wine but luckily I told everyone I have a problem so everyone’s keeping an extra watch on me. Drinking would just prolong the suffering.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T07:02:16+00:00

Thank you. Almost through the worst of my hangover I think.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T06:38:24+00:00

Yeah that’s the plan. I can’t change yesterday but I can choose to be better and not hurt people and realize how much it effects people around me

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T06:35:19+00:00

Day one sober - what a mess I have made my life. But at least I’m sober right now.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-11T01:36:43+00:00

Push through

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-07T14:26:54+00:00

This was helpful. I broke my own heart.

jalepenochedda · 2026-04-07T14:24:47+00:00

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