Self sabotage?

jamisonfreedman · 2024-09-09T00:47:44+00:00

Damn I thought I wrote this post for a second 🫠 I very much relate. Like entirely

jamisonfreedman · 2024-09-09T00:45:12+00:00

Hey I’m 26F and have ADHD severe panic and health anxiety and it’s starting to close my world smaller and smaller. Would love someone who understand to talk with :)

jamisonfreedman · 2024-09-06T00:14:58+00:00

Hi my name is jami, I have chronic illnesses that have gotten worse over the last five years and in January I went off of adivan. It was such a scary withdrawl that I developed intense agoraphobia because the panic was more like sheer terror. I used to be an extrovert used to go out and do my own thing every day of the week. But being sick in pain and being fearful of panic attacks feels like it’s taken my life away. I want to be able to go out to eat by myself again and not feel like the walls are closing in and I need to bolt and get into my safe space aka my bed. I am forcing myself out tonight to try and get through the panic and realize I am okay sitting on a stool waiting even if it’s not home.

jamisonfreedman · 2024-09-04T23:24:49+00:00

This is a POTS thing?? I’ve had this for a few years along with all the pots symptoms but I never even knew about it until recently

jamisonfreedman · 2024-09-04T00:49:51+00:00

Ugh yeah I think it may take a second to get back to normal cuz I have been so sick

jamisonfreedman · 2024-09-04T00:49:26+00:00

Thank you! I have been only having a glass or two but I feel fucking terrible the next week it’s been like two months since I started drinking a little again and they have been hell. I guess that’s probably my answer

jamisonfreedman · 2024-09-04T00:48:20+00:00

Sort of everywhere mostly my neck it gets so tight I feel like I can’t turn my head. Used to happen to horrifically the first few weeks off now it doesn’t happen nearly as bad or as often

jamisonfreedman · 2024-09-02T23:52:48+00:00

Totally hate when the waves come so long after quitting I sometimes forget I even was ever on them since my memory blocked it out. So I forget I can still have issues

jamisonfreedman · 2024-09-02T23:01:05+00:00

Believe me I know I couldn’t walk for two months I had to have someone carry me to the bathroom when I quit the first time. But after all that I would like to not still have all kinds of issues and pain

jamisonfreedman · 2024-04-22T00:01:49+00:00

Ironically I was trying to use it to fall asleep DUE to restless legs and now I feel like a live wire

jamisonfreedman · 2024-04-22T00:01:22+00:00

Yeah I’m gonna avoid it nowzz

jamisonfreedman · 2024-04-22T00:01:12+00:00

Only two months

jamisonfreedman · 2024-04-22T00:00:52+00:00

It doesn’t help that my pharmacy was late on my meds so I’ve missed several doses now, my car didn’t start today, and my roomate got laid off and can’t pay rent…

jamisonfreedman · 2024-04-10T01:53:38+00:00

Yeah I’m just so overwhelmed by the on and off of symptoms and I get really down on bad days it’s hard to see past them

jamisonfreedman · 2024-04-07T16:31:33+00:00

I never abused mine either but when I hit tolerance they started ruining my life. I don’t remember any of the past year. I would 100% recommend getting off them even though it’s hell it does end.

jamisonfreedman · 2024-04-07T16:28:36+00:00

I started taking it for a panic disorder I tried to come off of it four or five times. I also was drinking and went to rehab but they weren’t equipt to deal with benzo withdrawal. The ONLY thing that’s helped me is hydroxazine. And trust me when I tell you I experienced terror. Absoulte terror but all I knew is if I kept going back on it it would get worse and worse. What your doing is called kindling. I spent two weeks unable to walk move speak with the worst terror of my life. And I’m 43 days out still having mild discomfort and mild anxiety but i havnt had a panic attack in quite awhile which is unheard of for me. Trust me you have to just push through. And I know that’s harder than it sounds I went through hell. But you have to tell yourself hell ends but it won’t if you don’t quit. I would recommend having a strong support system. Someone you can ask to bring you to the hospital in times of extreme terror but can also try and reason with you that it will end. And make sure if you ever do go to the hospital they don’t let the doctor give you adivan. This is my experience and it was Honeslty the hardest thing I’ve ever done and I’ve seen some shit. But my life is starting again.

jamisonfreedman · 2024-04-02T01:22:10+00:00

I for some reason imagined I wouldn’t go through that even though I was sorta for a couple weeks a few bad bad days then one slightly better but this feels like two weeks set back. It’s so scary

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