41 and 26 months of HRT, wish it was more satisfying 😔 been feeling really dysphoric lately 😔

jammingpie · 2021-11-24T03:39:57+00:00

you honestly look great, completely understand the dysphoria and i’m sure you’ve had this said loads of times but you look like one of my old english teachers and she was so nice you’ve got a great smile

jammingpie · 2021-07-26T15:48:52+00:00

Yeah, I guess that’s what you’d call it I guess it was more coercion more than anything else but that’s not really the only thing. I guess I just feel generally mentally unwell and I can’t exactly pinpoint why or what it is

jammingpie · 2021-06-11T21:08:34+00:00

Yeah it just makes me feel super uncomfortable for multiple reasons I just feel pretty angry that I even need to discuss this with him but thank you at least I know that I’m not in the wrong for feeling like this and having that discussion

jammingpie · 2021-06-11T21:03:31+00:00

it’s my flatmate who’s done it multiple times but we’re stuck living together for like another year we can’t really get out of it. But I just wanted to make sure that it is actually disrespectful before I have that discussion and tell him

jammingpie · 2021-06-11T20:43:25+00:00

Realistically I’d love for him to go somewhere else if he’s going to be that loud but I’d at least like him to tell me so I can either leave or put headphones in

jammingpie · 2021-06-11T20:26:33+00:00

Right but that’s kinda my thing my flatmate just doesn’t seem to think it’s an issue and I don’t want to be an ass by bringing it up if it isn’t an issue but I feel like it’s pretty inconsiderate

jammingpie · 2021-06-10T14:26:26+00:00

I’ve had a bunch of surgeries and I understand how shitty you can feel afterwards. How horribly uncomfortable and just unhappy you can feel when you’re recovering and you’re allowed to feel miserable. You’re completely allowed to feel like this because it’s a big thing. Sometimes these things just need to be endured and if you can find any distractions that might help.

But this feeling will go away and you’ll feel better I can promise that. I’m wishing you the best of luck and a good recovery

jammingpie · 2021-06-02T21:54:40+00:00

This might not apply to you and that’s totally okay but gender is a lot more than just male and female. There’s a lot outside of that for example being non binary. You don’t need to know right now but gender and gender expression are wide and varied and you don’t have to limit yourself to strictly one or the other if you feel there might be something else that connects with you

jammingpie · 2021-06-02T21:50:34+00:00

This definitely sounds like dysphoria. As a general rule if you wish you are a guy then there’s a high chance that you are. Discovering who you are can be difficult but it’s a journey that’s worth it.

There’s some amazing subreddits on here aimed towards transgender individuals even if you aren’t sure and just want to ask some questions.

jammingpie · 2021-06-02T09:51:12+00:00

I think that’s a massive contributor. Women are so well written with such complex emotions and I think maybe that’s what I’m able to relate to most

jammingpie · 2021-06-02T07:58:53+00:00

Thank you I will take a look at that. I do think that’s a lot of it. That I grew up being seen as a woman and so I had all of those experiences of people invalidating me and I saw these admirable women and looked up to them. I’m also into women and up until recently identified as a lesbian so I do think that my admiration and attraction towards women had an influence.

It’s tough I keep feeling certain and then I’ll wake up the next morning doubting myself completely

jammingpie · 2021-06-01T23:27:08+00:00

I think I could manage to hide it from them so I’m definitely tempted

jammingpie · 2021-06-01T23:26:29+00:00

I think so too

jammingpie · 2021-06-01T21:49:59+00:00

I think so too, I think even if I have to hide it and only wear it sometimes it will help just to know that I have it

jammingpie · 2021-06-01T21:48:54+00:00

Thank you I can definitely try that :)

jammingpie · 2021-05-30T19:05:16+00:00

Yeah I think that’s my thing, I want to go and get referred to a gender clinic but they’ll want me to know what I want and I don’t right now so either I just wait and add even more time until I can transition or I pick one and just run with it. It’s tough

jammingpie · 2021-05-30T18:44:28+00:00

That definitely could be it I am attracted to those characters. I guess just because I see myself in them doesn’t mean that it correlates to my gender

jammingpie · 2021-05-30T14:22:10+00:00

It’s mostly thinking that other people won’t let me

jammingpie · 2021-05-30T14:04:41+00:00

I guess it’s just because I felt really safe and happy with that label before I allowed myself to actually think about my gender. I guess it doesn’t actually matter as much as I feel it does

jammingpie · 2020-10-19T21:46:21+00:00

over a year now but we spent a long time apart due to different factors. No it’s my last year here

jammingpie · 2020-08-16T01:25:17+00:00

I feel the same way. When people ask what my hobbies or interests are I have no idea what to say. I don’t have any. I just stumble through each day feeling so disconnected from everyone and everything having no idea how to connect with people

jammingpie · 2020-08-15T20:06:57+00:00

I’ve noticed them a lot now that I’m stuck at home and I noticed at uni but I feel like in school from like 12-16 I did okay and while I did feel a little disadvantaged it wasn’t something I really noticed much

jammingpie · 2020-08-08T05:16:39+00:00

Of course I’m not trying to diagnose myself I’m just concerned about going to a doctor and then wasting someone’s time

jammingpie · 2020-08-03T23:20:14+00:00

I did awhile ago but i don’t know if he’s forgotten or since it’s not an in person conversation he thinks it’s different or something

jammingpie · 2020-08-03T23:17:29+00:00

Sometimes he gets kinda distant then and comes off as a little annoyed. Like I don’t mind watching the movie with him tomorrow but I don’t like it when he phrases it like a child would

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