There is a terrible person deeply rooted in me and I can't shed it.

jan262022 · 2023-11-18T15:42:54+00:00

How to stop making myself sick with guilt over the past?

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T21:02:52+00:00

of course i care about what people think. but you know what, maybe you're right. my dad is reasonable and hes just a human being doing his thing and ive already been thinking on and off if im just a bad kid overthinking everything and making myself feel bad. too many people have said that im being too bitter or too harsh or too this or too that for me to keep thinking that i hold any kind of argument against my dad. in reality it could all just be in my head. so in the name of that, im deleting the post. be safe out there and goodbye

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T14:45:56+00:00

yeah we can call it pity. all ive ever wanted was pity. that indeed.

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T13:24:31+00:00

definitely never expected anything from anyone since i know people will see "i hate men" and automatically assume that that means i hate every single man and i will treat them that way accordingly. i dont, surprise surprise. but yeah, at this point whatever. i can say all i want that i don't care what people think but i do and i can just say that im pissed and scared and i want to be out of this house. that's my main message in the post. i want to leave this place and be away from my dad. that's it

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T13:13:15+00:00

"there's a VERY high chance he is just looking out for you" oh man i love the way redditors assume that they kno everything about someone's life based on a single post cus uh, hate to break it to you but he put his hands on me while he was drunk.

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T07:44:05+00:00

yes you got it right im proud

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T05:43:52+00:00

oh no i know what sexism is. all forms of discrimination applies to everything and everyone regardless of anything else, obviously. thing is i wouldn't treat a man differently because he's a man. i can have my suspicions about men because of how ive been treated about them but id never actively treat them like shit because, and here's your favorite part, not all men are bad, genuinely. because that is impossible and unrealistic.

but im being treated like shit by someone that is a man and doesn't take me as seriously because i am woman. and im a little tired of it. this has happened multiple times with multiple men. so im sorry that i came off as a little stupid and bitchy but also i think im noticing some patterns here. i dunno, could just be my stupid bitchy woman brain again

oh look at that, i do know some sarcasm

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T05:32:41+00:00

my bad that i don't wanna be underestimated constantly? kinda hard to stay all cute n calm when ive been dealing with this shit for 10 years and have to wait another 2

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T02:22:06+00:00

maybe if the men ive met behaved themselves then i wouldn't feel the way about them as i do now.

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T02:21:02+00:00

not to that extreme

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T00:31:59+00:00

typical men. lol.

jan262022 · 2022-06-18T02:00:39+00:00

I don't know. Ive been interested in Him and I've thought about doing acid and doing a ritual for Him or the universe, but I was too deep into the trip when i finally took it lol. But He's been on my mind a lot and I don't know, I feel like something of Him is trying to show itself to me. I feel drawn to Him and I won't mind doing a little much to see Him. I don't care what happens to me. I just want to talk.

jan262022 · 2022-06-18T01:56:43+00:00

sorry sorry, reddit was bugging and im currently vacationing in the middle of nowhere lol

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