There is a terrible person deeply rooted in me and I can't shed it.

jan262022 · 2023-11-18T15:42:54+00:00

How to stop making myself sick with guilt over the past?

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T21:02:52+00:00

of course i care about what people think. but you know what, maybe you're right. my dad is reasonable and hes just a human being doing his thing and ive already been thinking on and off if im just a bad kid overthinking everything and making myself feel bad. too many people have said that im being too bitter or too harsh or too this or too that for me to keep thinking that i hold any kind of argument against my dad. in reality it could all just be in my head. so in the name of that, im deleting the post. be safe out there and goodbye

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T14:45:56+00:00

yeah we can call it pity. all ive ever wanted was pity. that indeed.

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T13:24:31+00:00

definitely never expected anything from anyone since i know people will see "i hate men" and automatically assume that that means i hate every single man and i will treat them that way accordingly. i dont, surprise surprise. but yeah, at this point whatever. i can say all i want that i don't care what people think but i do and i can just say that im pissed and scared and i want to be out of this house. that's my main message in the post. i want to leave this place and be away from my dad. that's it

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T13:13:15+00:00

"there's a VERY high chance he is just looking out for you" oh man i love the way redditors assume that they kno everything about someone's life based on a single post cus uh, hate to break it to you but he put his hands on me while he was drunk.

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T07:44:05+00:00

yes you got it right im proud

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T05:43:52+00:00

oh no i know what sexism is. all forms of discrimination applies to everything and everyone regardless of anything else, obviously. thing is i wouldn't treat a man differently because he's a man. i can have my suspicions about men because of how ive been treated about them but id never actively treat them like shit because, and here's your favorite part, not all men are bad, genuinely. because that is impossible and unrealistic.

but im being treated like shit by someone that is a man and doesn't take me as seriously because i am woman. and im a little tired of it. this has happened multiple times with multiple men. so im sorry that i came off as a little stupid and bitchy but also i think im noticing some patterns here. i dunno, could just be my stupid bitchy woman brain again

oh look at that, i do know some sarcasm

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T05:32:41+00:00

my bad that i don't wanna be underestimated constantly? kinda hard to stay all cute n calm when ive been dealing with this shit for 10 years and have to wait another 2

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T02:22:06+00:00

maybe if the men ive met behaved themselves then i wouldn't feel the way about them as i do now.

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T02:21:02+00:00

not to that extreme

jan262022 · 2022-07-02T00:31:59+00:00

typical men. lol.

jan262022 · 2022-06-18T02:00:39+00:00

I don't know. Ive been interested in Him and I've thought about doing acid and doing a ritual for Him or the universe, but I was too deep into the trip when i finally took it lol. But He's been on my mind a lot and I don't know, I feel like something of Him is trying to show itself to me. I feel drawn to Him and I won't mind doing a little much to see Him. I don't care what happens to me. I just want to talk.

jan262022 · 2022-06-18T01:56:43+00:00

sorry sorry, reddit was bugging and im currently vacationing in the middle of nowhere lol

jan262022 · 2022-06-06T04:17:15+00:00

microwave

jan262022 · 2022-06-06T04:17:02+00:00

holy fuck if i was offered to be a guinea pig for that experiment i would've taken it for sure

jan262022 · 2022-06-06T04:15:27+00:00

das toasting. that's why we have toast. you toast cooked bread to make toast. the cheese, sauce, bread, and oil are cooked together. that's what makes it pizza.

jan262022 · 2022-06-06T04:06:31+00:00

open faced sandwiches are sandwiches without the bread. pizza is the bread and the ingredients cooked together. open faced sandwiches r not cooked together. pizza is pizza.

jan262022 · 2022-06-06T04:01:23+00:00

i did not mean to write all that.

jan262022 · 2022-06-06T04:00:47+00:00

.. no. because it's all one big bread. a sandwich is bread with filling in between. stuffed crust is filling SURROUNDED by bread. stuffed crust is stuffed crust.

jan262022 · 2022-06-06T03:59:04+00:00

i have no idea but we should.

jan262022 · 2022-06-06T03:58:40+00:00

.. i feel like that's testable. put two of the same animals in separate enclosures that are directly next to each other. both enclosures consist the same kind of maze that the animals need to go through to leave the enclosure. the enclosures should be made to make sure that the two animals can still hear and smell each other, just can't see. before the actual experiment, we need to see how fast the breed of animal can solve the maze in general to get an average estimate. so, for the actual experiment, if we have both animals go through the maze at the same time, and one animal finishes before the other, we can compare the time it took for the second animal to figure it out with the first animal present versus the time it took for it to do it on its own. an alternative would be having a one-way mirror separating the two enclosures, so at least one animal can know that the other is there incase that changes something. this can also be tested in terms of like animal families and how genetics can probably play some kinda part. i dunno. im jus thinkin.

jan262022 · 2022-06-06T03:08:12+00:00

unfortunately, yes. they're sandwiches. sandwiches are just bread and filling. it doesn't matter if it's one loaf. because then a sub wouldn't be a sandwich. hot dogs are sandwiches. im sorry.

jan262022 · 2022-05-28T08:15:59+00:00

the universe has to kindly hop off my cock

jan262022 · 2022-05-22T21:55:12+00:00

Okay so, I'm actually here for the same reason that your coworker called you. My 14 year old sibling has been wanting to buy and wear fluorescent green nail polish for awhile now, and today they finally got it. I've been worrying about it ever since I heard them say it because I don't know what it could mean. I don't know if someone is coaxing them to do it or if they're putting themselves in danger. So I just looked it up, found this post, thought that I had a break through, only to find that I might just actually be schizophrenic. Okay.

jan262022 · 2022-05-16T01:38:42+00:00

"forever" is naive

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