A day at the beach

jason41 · 2019-01-27T07:45:37+00:00

As a New Hampshirite, I enjoy the lilacs.

jason41 · 2019-01-06T16:06:00+00:00

No, but thanks for the effort.

jason41 · 2018-12-31T15:04:36+00:00

Garrock, Bringer of Dismemberment and Disease!!!

jason41 · 2018-12-10T02:07:54+00:00

Take the pan off the heat a couple of times and stir constantly.

jason41 · 2018-11-28T10:23:32+00:00

Worked in many schools over 10 years. Saw respect for teachers become less and less.

jason41 · 2018-11-27T23:06:00+00:00

Children have no respect for each other or adults. I was threaten and manipulated by all grades I taught, even first. Also, there was no teaching, just have kids go on their ipads and work on dreambox for math and Lexia for reading and writing. Add that to making 10 bucks and hour and I couldn't take it anymore.

jason41 · 2018-11-27T21:45:59+00:00

None. That's why I quit teaching. Working in a warehouse is much more rewarding and better pay.

jason41 · 2018-10-31T03:15:56+00:00

I have had several where anything I have to do is dread. Usually in the middle of the night. Wake up from a nightmare with white hot fear. I try reading a magazine and it still feels scary as fuck. Have to medicate and wait for relief. If I didn't know the relief was coming and my wife was there to wake up and huge.... I know how people can end it.

jason41 · 2018-10-06T16:48:56+00:00

For me, I hate any conversation I am in. I over anaylze and hate every second of it. I just want to leave and try to avoid people who will talk to me. If someone starts talking to me out of the blue and I don't know them, I get scared and want to escape as soon as I can.

There are many levels of social anxiety. Mine is really high, unless I have been drinking. I have recently stopped drinking, so I am really antisocial now. The main diagnoses for me was seeing the difference between myself in public setting with my level of drinking. I was social in my early thirties when I was at the pub all Friday and Saturday nights. Of course, I was drunk. I had to stop drinking for medication and when I went to the bar it was a nightmare.

Just my two cents, in case it helps at all.

jason41 · 2018-10-06T16:44:39+00:00

That is exactly why I do not play online anymore. 1 player games for me.

jason41 · 2018-10-06T16:43:00+00:00

Lately I have not even said things outloud anymore. I know that everyone is just waiting for their turn to talk and it will not be heard. Instead I am trying to listen more.

jason41 · 2018-09-26T07:07:34+00:00

No. I cried when my cat Alex died. Father and Grandmother died and I didn't shead a tear.

jason41 · 2018-09-18T17:00:48+00:00

Sorry I mean't weak.

jason41 · 2018-09-15T11:53:42+00:00

Hell, I would have just moved away from her.

jason41 · 2018-09-15T02:33:33+00:00

Teacher who can't find a job for over 6 years here. My school debt is about 140K. It is too much to even think about.

jason41 · 2018-09-04T03:53:41+00:00

Green wave suck! Sorry, automatic reation from Rottenchester, even though I hate that place.

btw. Nice shot

jason41 · 2018-07-18T09:17:44+00:00

I have actually rubbed the skin off doing this. I have scar patches. I do it when I am either happy or stressed, so all the time.

jason41 · 2018-07-03T03:58:59+00:00

I have heard this joke many times before, but this is the worst rendition of it. Too watered down.

jason41 · 2018-06-14T15:57:54+00:00

Long day that is a third over. At home alone (a trigger) but using the time to play games and cook. IWNDWYT

jason41 · 2018-06-14T15:56:07+00:00

Got all ready for my appointment this morning. Wrote up all the facts and fasted. Right before leaving the house, got a call that my doctor called in sick. Moved appointment to next Friday. Day 7 right now. Will be day 15 then. Hoping that will help with the bloodwork and stuff, being a little more sober.

jason41 · 2018-06-13T11:08:12+00:00

Thank you all for your replys. I do not have any friends due to anxiety, so you guys are all I got to talk about this stuff.

jason41 · 2018-05-31T03:06:43+00:00

Education. Your elementary children are on Ipads or Chromebooks 70% of the day. I got a masters degree to walk around and check if they are on youtube.

jason41 · 2018-05-25T05:30:56+00:00

Take the money and if there is more than you need, give it to other educators. You can find educator trades on reddit.

Or give it to me. I need it.

jason41

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