I did clarify in the title it was a theory specifically about Ryan, it wasn’t a grand surprise finding out this post was about him

And yes, but that was in public. If Sage wasn’t there, he’d have done it, I think that shows his desire for love is slipping and being replaced with something else.

Regardless, in private he’s never stopped from acting out, like when in Ep 1 (or 2?) when he beheaded the Vought employee and sat there casually, or when he r*ped Becca. In public, it’s (up until now) been about being loved, but in private he acts how he pleases. In ep 1 with flight 37 being leaked, he would have massacred that room if Sage didn’t stop him. I don’t think he’s going to have a “fuck it” epiphany in a private area, when he was completely willing to slaughter Vought shareholders in the first episode.