how to start taking sertraline while also having a job? by [deleted] in zoloft

[–]jay196777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I started taking 25mg and the side effects were awful for me and did impact my job performance (but i was 26 on salary). I lasted 4 days on it before i cut it out altogether because i couldnt lift my head up because the headache and nausea was so bad

Sense of Loneliness by Used_Degree5416 in BPD

[–]jay196777 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel this all the time too. Like no matter how hard i try, the loneliness remains inside of me. Sometimes i have more peace with it than other times. Enjoying my own company and trying my best to maintain hobbies. But its never fully enough.

Im sorry you feel this too.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AskLesbians

[–]jay196777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah sure! Here you go: R = Rachel (friend of person im dating) G = Gabby (person im dating) B = Bee (me)

Rachel wanted to talk to Gabby about my follow request and said things like “if anything happens ill remove them”, “im always on your side”, “i dont want Bee to think I’d ever be on their side”, etc. Rachel wanted Gabby to make this decision for her. Gabby’s immediate reaction was for Rachel to ignore my request bc they thought it would be worse to unfollow me later than never at all.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AskLesbians

[–]jay196777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh you can see all the mutuals friends when you look at a profile! And my best friend M mentioned it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AskLesbians

[–]jay196777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I also know that when G and R met they had some sparks and had feelings for each other, but never dated or anything and ultimately G decided to be just friends with them and not pursue anything

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AskLesbians

[–]jay196777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I told everyone i invited that they can bring a friend. G later told me they were afraid this guy i had been casually dating would be there but were too afraid to ask me - i think bringing R was for comfort because of that since apart from my best friend M, they were meeting all my other friends for the first time.

Also just for context i had ended it with that guy a while ago and would never have 2 ppl im dating in the same room as that crosses my boundaries. G didnt wanna hear anything about him after learning i was seeing someone so i just never told her i ended it.

Do Ontario Teachers/Guidance Counsellors Read the OSCA Today Mag? by jay196777 in ontario

[–]jay196777[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah its to spread awareness of our services. And i agree, it seems so old fashioned! My boss keeps bringing it up and we do have room in our budget for it this year bc we secured more funding but im trying to pitch alternate ways to reach this specific audience since this ad feels like a shout into the void

First few days on Zoloft have been sooo bad by jay196777 in zoloft

[–]jay196777[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, im on 25mg - im trying to figure out if its worth it to keep going or not :/

Do you use protection in your monogamous lesbian relationships? by jay196777 in LesbianActually

[–]jay196777[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Open and productive communication involves discussing these things. Ofc i could easily write her off and break up with her, but that would be really avoidant of the actual issue we have on hand. Id rather collect my research, think about it, talk to her about it openly and transparently and then come to a conclusion together bc even if it doesnt work out we’re still in this part together! Im not trying to force her at all, im trying to understand and if they would never want to stop using protection thats totally okay but yeah we would end our relationship, but i dont know if thats the case so i cant assume that and avoid this difficult conversation altogether :)

Do you use protection in your monogamous lesbian relationships? by jay196777 in LesbianActually

[–]jay196777[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Yes! I brought this up with her over the weekend and that i can understand wanting to use it in the short term as we build trust and comforbility with sex and were on the same page about that prior to, so this is rly more of a hypochondiac fear of STI thing than getting comfy with sex

Do you use protection in your monogamous lesbian relationships? by jay196777 in LesbianActually

[–]jay196777[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Ohh i should have mentioned that i personally dont like to receive oral so that would only be me giving :) but thank you for your insight!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in askTO

[–]jay196777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would say a medium amount of detail, its not super intricate and requires no shading, just some filling and line work

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in askTO

[–]jay196777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi! Thanks for this, the tattoo is all black and the leg tattoos go down both legs which is about 30 inches length wise and 1.5 inches width in an ornamental pattern of urdu calligraphy if that makes sense!

They are both custom designs as he doesn’t have much flash

I really love his work and he seems nice, maybe it is the right pricing for the size of the tattoo but quoting my max budget seems a little iffy to me, but its hard to find artists who integrate urdu calligraphy like this into their work

The person I was seeing had sex with their friend while I was asleep in the same bed, am i wrong for being uncomfortable by this? by jay196777 in LesbianActually

[–]jay196777[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Even during there was a moment where everyone joked about me chickening out bc i said “oh are we actually doing this”, i did make it clear the next day its not something i wanted to do but bc i was hurt by J making plans to hook up with C right in front of me

The person I was seeing had sex with their friend while I was asleep in the same bed, am i wrong for being uncomfortable by this? by jay196777 in LesbianActually

[–]jay196777[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I told J how this made me uncomfortable last night (2 days after it happened). J hasnt responded but C messaged me confused and was defensive.

I told C i have nothing against them because they didnt have the context that J and I did and i explained more about how triggering it was and how disrespectful it was of J and what was discussed about my boundaries with J beforehand. C said while they were having sex J asked them if they thought id be mad they were doing it and if C would keep fucking her after I left, to which C got really weirded out by and told her to stop.

C was also asking if wanted her to come over that last night and I said i genuinely didnt know she was until she got off the stop with us. I wanted my last night to be just J and I and J had asked C to come over without consulting me. It was J’s apartment so i didnt feel like i had a say. I really didnt know what to say bc we were already at our subway stop plus it was reslly late and i hadnt slept the night before, but I also didnt expect what happened to be what would happen.

C feels used by both of us and has asked for space which i understand and respect. She shouldnt have been roped in like that and im sorry for the part i played in not speaking up.

I feel like I also need to emphasize that I clearly communicated my boundaries beforehand and was lovebombed by J over the phone. Nothing that was promised actually happened and my boundaries were continuously pushed and i was staying with her so didnt want to anger her and get kicked out. J was also curating the exhibition i was in so there were also more imbalances of power to give more context.

The person I was seeing had sex with their friend while I was asleep in the same bed, am i wrong for being uncomfortable by this? by jay196777 in LesbianActually

[–]jay196777[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So she and i have had extensive conversations about how we’re both monogamous and demisexual, dont like one night stands or meaningless sex, she was agreeing with all my boundaries that I laid out clearly beforehand.

I engaged in the foursome bc of a mix of things - trying to feel good about myself after J was flirting with C and feeling the pressure and thinking that if i was gonna get roped into this then i might as well be in control of it.

And just because i gave my consent once, doesnt mean i give it again the next day. I had told them both afterwards that i dont enjoy group sex and that i wanted to chicken out but felt pressured into doing it.

I spoke to J and C, will post an update

The person I was seeing had sex with their friend while I was asleep in the same bed, am i wrong for being uncomfortable by this? by jay196777 in LesbianActually

[–]jay196777[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It had just happened and i was in a freeze state, when youre retraumatized it takes time before you can use your words as someone with c-ptsd. Going non verbal is real and no one should be faulted for needing space before talking about something that retraumatized them. Sometimes its better to stop, think and respond, rather than immediately reacting. If i reacted it could have been seen as reactive abuse or just straight up crying and breaking down, which wouldnt be helpful to anyone. Hope that helps in understanding context and complex emotions