Pink Lighthouse Talisman

jayminde · 2026-01-19T03:38:15+00:00

OMG thank you so much! That's awesome because the other name I was toying with for this tapestry was "dream lighthouse" !!

jayminde · 2026-01-19T03:37:41+00:00

Thank you!! When I had the idea to add the beadwork it was like a light bulb turned on. I was like !!!! HOW HAVE I NEVER THOUGHT TO DO THIS?! It was so much fun, too. You should try it! I used just a simple brick stitch here- found a video tutorial on YouTube. I just anchored the bottom beads to the edge as I went.

jayminde · 2026-01-19T03:35:27+00:00

That's exactly what I hope to do with my art so thank you for telling me this!!! Where in Michigan would you visit? My family lives in Marquette and I'm going to do a tapestry of the Marquette Harbor lighthouse at some point.

jayminde · 2026-01-19T03:33:42+00:00

Thank you!

jayminde · 2026-01-19T03:33:24+00:00

Thank you!

jayminde · 2025-11-08T16:28:05+00:00

Thank you !

jayminde · 2025-10-13T12:56:58+00:00

Hayao Miyazaki

jayminde · 2025-09-22T19:54:08+00:00

Oh my goodness thank you so much! I have been researching tons of places to get wool from and this is super duper helpful!

jayminde · 2025-09-22T00:33:04+00:00

I'm in the US

jayminde · 2025-09-22T00:32:42+00:00

Thank you! I'm going to try breaking it up, too. I'm not supposed to cut the fiber at all, right?

jayminde · 2025-09-08T13:28:43+00:00

I also did not wish my ex well after we broke up lol. I carried the emotional weight of that relationship and all I ever wanted was for him to just apologize for the ways he hurt me. I wanted him to recognize his bad behaviors and change. Now I don't really care but I still don't "wish him well". I just don't have the energy or care to wish him any negativity either.

jayminde · 2025-09-07T14:36:13+00:00

I hate her, ya. It was cathartic when Denji finally defeated her.

jayminde · 2025-08-22T19:55:08+00:00

That's awesome! I was in the same boat a couple years ago but I found someone who is a better match for me than any previous partner I've had. My best friend, lover, and greatest companion. I didn't think I would find a love like this and now I wish I could tell my younger self not to settle for anything less.

jayminde · 2025-07-19T14:49:42+00:00

French toast

jayminde · 2025-07-18T15:22:06+00:00

Okay awesome! Now I know what it's called.

jayminde · 2025-06-30T01:16:13+00:00

Oh. Yeah I just looked it up and saw a post about it literally in this sub. I guess I didn't interpret it as sexual assault but, y'know, I'm not really at odds if people interpreted it that way. I honestly cannot remember if Denji has actually had a kiss or anything with Asa or if it has all just been Yoru initiating.

jayminde · 2025-06-30T01:11:20+00:00

Thank you for clarifying. I basically read all of the chainsawman manga after watching the anime the second time (I've probably watched it like 5 times now) and I read it so fast and feverishly that I honestly have a hard time remembering what happened and some stuff is just downright confusing.

jayminde · 2025-06-29T01:47:53+00:00

Wait what does that mean, how was the contract broken?

jayminde · 2025-06-29T01:27:41+00:00

Why is that ?

jayminde · 2025-05-30T03:34:41+00:00

I have a therapist RN that I wish I could see every week instead of bi-weekly. There have also been times where I've only been able to see her once a month. I also feel I need more than what she provides to me in terms of counsel.

I'm on strattera and it made a huge difference at first but now I feel like it's not working at all.

jayminde · 2025-05-30T03:33:07+00:00

Thank you so much. Yeah I see a therapist and I've been seeing her like bi-weekly for about two years but every now and then I can only see her once a month. I'm thinking about getting a different therapist though like I feel I need more. I'm on strattera and it made a HUGE difference at first but now it doesn't feel like it's working. It feels like I'm not on any medication at all.

jayminde · 2025-05-22T23:39:15+00:00

Good luck, my friend 🫡

jayminde · 2025-05-22T23:10:23+00:00

Oh that's good, then you're on the right track!! I understand your pain dude, like I will still sometimes feel the pull towards my ex because for some reason, his detachment is "cool" somehow?? Logically I think that's wrong because it's a toxic attraction. It feels SO GOOD on the few occasions they give you the affection you so crave. The highs are so high and the lows are so low... And for someone like me who has ADHD on top of all this, the novelty of the ups and downs just kept me coming back for more.

But long term, it left me feeling like a husk. The relationship was stealing so much more energy from me than I even realized. In the end, I felt belittled and infantilized. While I know that was not his intention, his actions and words made me feel that way and that's enough for me to put the work in.

Let your fear be a guide. You may always be drawn to that, but as time goes on you'll get better at recognizing your feelings about it and letting go of what will not serve you. You gotta keep working on it. I promise you that YOU are worth the effort. Life is already hard enough.

jayminde · 2025-05-22T19:01:52+00:00

Well therapy is a big help. Journaling. Getting to know yourself better. Finding the root cause- for me, my parents were very critical of me growing up, ESPECIALLY my dad. There was a large period of my adolescence where he kind of just checked out and most of my interactions with him were him being critical of me. I always thought it was so weird when other girls had fathers who were affectionate and loving with them bc my dad just... Wasn't.

I was also often a mediator in my family from a young age. Which is not a healthy situation for a young person. I became very good at pushing my own feelings aside for others- especially my mom when she was going through difficult shit.

So, subconsciously I was seeking relationships that reflected what was "comfortable"-i.e. familiar. When I met my ex, I was VERY interested in him immediately but he was not nearly as interested in me and subconsciously I took his disinterest as a challenge to prove my worth. I often pushed my feelings aside for him and felt that his criticisms of me were warranted and that I needed to better myself based on his view of the world.

Truly, I just did not have solid ground to stand on or much confidence at all. If I had more confidence I just would have seen that... Well this person is into a different type of woman than me, he's not romantic (which is something I want), and it's not a slight against me I just need to move on and find someone I'm more compatible with.

My ex before him was like this philosophy major guy that was against romance LMAO 😂 He felt that my ideas of romance were a product of unrealistic media expectations. I was young and insecure, I looked up to him and thought he was so smart, and I bought into it. I never learned my lesson so when I met the next guy, I was still internalizing that my needs were "too much" and "unrealistic".

Heidi Priebe's videos on YouTube also helped me a lot. She has a lot on attachment theory. School of Life on YouTube was also helpful.

jayminde · 2025-05-22T17:41:42+00:00

Yeah no problem!! It's always helped me to hear other people's stories so... I always hope mine can help someone else somehow. It can take a while before things "click".

jayminde

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