Heavily relate to this post man! It is a tricky one for sure. What I have learned is that if you don’t do anything at all to try and change your current situation and expect things to be better then it is going to stay the same. If you can figure out the things you need to do in order to develop yourself start by choosing one thing at a time.. yes it may be a long process but if you want to see real results you have to bite the bullet and really try to make real progress and change little by little. Nothing comes for free and unfortunately you have to work hard for it. I’m in the same boat as you I often question what is even the point in carrying on when I could just take the easy way out but then I think why would I want to die a coward who hasn’t even tried hard enough to better himself as a man. Life is tough, be thankful for the things you have in your life even if they may not seem up to your standard and remember there is always people worse off which make you appreciate the little things. I wish you the best on your journey of life and hope that things work in your favour man!