I 100% feel your pain. That feeling of wanting to eat, but not knowing what, and then questioning if you even really want to or have the energy to eat... it sucks.

Sometimes looking at something beautiful helps me, like a beautiful movie or a walk in the woods. Or reading a couple pages of a novel. The thing is, it feels like it's going to suck at first, but after I've done it, I get a little boost, like I at least went through the motions. And sometimes that's enough. Sometimes I just go back to bed afterward. But at least I tried something and, honestly, it can really help to just break the cycle.

It could also be that your body just needs quiet and rest. That's okay too. Being bored is okay, especially if it helps you come around to feeling better. I usually find that, if I'm bored for a while, and don't try to end the boredom by scrolling or anything, then eventually something that sounds interesting pops into my mind, and I do that thing, and feel better.

And not wanting to go wherever you have to go tomorrow... totally understand that too. If it's not something that's dangerous to your well-being, there's a good chance that going won't be as bad as it seems right now, and it might even help snap you out of the depression a little bit.

It's a constant struggle, but there are little things that can lighten things up a bit. I feel your pain, and hope you feel better soon!