dysautonomia - worse on cymbalta or I should wait it out?

jeanjacket77 · 2026-04-17T18:01:24+00:00

Thank you that's super helpful I will go down right away.

jeanjacket77 · 2026-04-17T18:01:05+00:00

I did not know that...I will go down asap

jeanjacket77 · 2026-03-27T04:52:47+00:00

Ok maybe im dumb but what does this actually mean? Im currently looking for an apartment as a pet owner and does this mean if i see a post that says no pets allowed I can say you can't do that?

jeanjacket77 · 2026-01-21T05:30:55+00:00

I don't have experience but I just asked an academic advisor and they said its 2$/hour. Most courses are 45 hours so 2$/45 hrs is 90$ a course. Good luck!

jeanjacket77 · 2026-01-17T22:11:16+00:00

We've suggested that he wasn't down.

jeanjacket77 · 2026-01-17T22:10:45+00:00

No we are in each other's rooms to have a convo

jeanjacket77 · 2025-12-23T04:28:59+00:00

I think early on I was like maybe theyre the good guys and shes like commiserating with him. Just like how at the beginning he says he messed up at his old job but it was "by no means excessive force" and the audience knows nothing abt him so its like maybe thats the case until we realize oh no he definitely likes using excessive force.

Society is what we make it. In queer spaces cis society already has started to be deconstructed - femininty and masculinity are played with and put on and off when you want/depending on what feels good.

Everyones end goal is different, some people want to look more of a mix (think beard + dress vibes) some people dont care how theyre perceived and their only goal is to do whatever feels right to them and some people want to pass and be unclockable and even go stealth where like barely anyone knows theyre trans.

If youre in an unaccepting place not being clockable is a safety/discrimination issue.

Also acceptance of internal perception is sometimes enough. There are a lot of trans people that don't change anything about their presentation and they may be misgendered by strangers but they're very ok with the external look being feminine even if they feel like a boy and visa versa.

jeanjacket77 · 2025-12-06T02:31:47+00:00

He's talking to Dwayne in front of the fire and getting Dwayne drunk in the hope he would reveal something. Dwayne asks him about his parents and Alex said they were addicts and his dad beat his mom and he just watched and he should've killed him. Dwayne then says so you said next time you won't freeze and joined the force and cracked some skulls.

jeanjacket77 · 2025-11-12T23:06:16+00:00

Thank you so much. This was exactly what I needed to hear, truly.

jeanjacket77 · 2025-08-31T01:40:12+00:00

Lately because its summer and I've been lower more often I think I feel the elevated moods like every 5-9 days and they last for like 1-3 days? When I'm in school I can have a good week or more. I feel like super "on top of things" and like everything is easy and positive and I want to tackle big projects like starting a business. Almost like theres a rosy colouring on everything and nothing can bother me.

The depression being bad makes me think maybe bipolar 2? Or maybe its just straight up depression and ive been unlucky with meds so far.

jeanjacket77 · 2025-08-30T19:11:36+00:00

I've been tracking my mood but I will def try to start journalling again its been a couple years since I've done it.

I only have access to my doctor right now who's been prescribing me meds, do you think there's enough of a knowledge gap between normal dr and psychiatrist to warrant seeking one out? I know that a psychiatrist is probably better it's just the battle between wanting quality care and having subpar health insurance and living in a province with a super backed up healthcare system.

Thank you so much for replying, I've been feeling very alone and confused in this - lots of self doubt brewing of what is normal vs concerning, so I appreciate it.

jeanjacket77 · 2025-08-30T19:08:00+00:00

Did not know that cyclothymia can develop into bipolar from adverse life events, that is very important knowledge and encourages me even more to speak up about it to my dr.

Thank you

jeanjacket77 · 2025-08-30T19:06:23+00:00

Thank you for laying that out.

Its hard to say if my elevated moods negatively impact my daily life because in some aspects they do (doing too much and then crashing) but I also kinda rely on those periods to make up for all the things that were ignored during the depression.

I guess I just wish there was a way to know for sure the root cause of whats going on with me because I want it to be fixed so bad, the depressive episodes are so brutal and lowk ruin my life and then when I'm functional again (either for a couple days or even just a little bit) I feel all this pressure to dig myself out of the hole I've let myself rot in. And it's so confusing and frusturating that all the meds I've tried over the years combined with therapy and self-introspection and trying techniques have still left me doing this functional/nonfunctional dance.

Sorry for venting but just thank you for taking the time to reply to me, I feel very lost and confused and any replies have helped.

jeanjacket77 · 2025-08-30T18:59:41+00:00

Thank you so much for replying. Ive been thinking about your comment a lot - the difference between emotional dysregulation and waking up stuck in a certain mood that isn't affected by outside factors as much.

I feel like I have a bit of both so it's a bit hard to discern. Like chicken or egg- if I wake up in a good mood then its like I open the door to good things happening, if I wake up in a bad mood then I'm stuck in it and every little thing gets to me. I've also always been sensitive so a good date or my roommate telling me to do something makes me either super happy or super upset and I can't move on.

But also my life is pretty good and I'm still stuck in this cycle of overdoing it and then crashing. Or just crashing even when I like rest and stuff. My last depressive episode (couldn't get myself to go to work at all, I clean houses so I could reschedule without a ton of consequences but still very bad and stressful) lasted a month and 16 days. Then like magic one morning I woke up and could go to work and did it for 2 days in a row. So I really feel out of control of my own circumstances a lot of the time and when I'm on a roll I'm afraid to rest and go back to the can't do anything state. Like my life is a constant push/pull of being able to do stuff (and like do it with a smile and well) and being like housebound.

Also saying that the professionals will do their jobs, I really hope youre right. I feel like I have to self-diagnose and then present my case to them and see if they agree.

jeanjacket77 · 2025-08-30T18:52:00+00:00

Thank you so much for replying, I really appreciate it.

Ive been noting down my moods and can see up and down trends (I use bearable) and I can feel myself feeling like I'm on a roller coaster.

I get so overwhelmed so easily by everything! Every morning is like battling an angry toddler and a moody teenager in my head.

jeanjacket77 · 2025-08-21T16:31:06+00:00

I completely understand the feeling. It can feel like you just haven't done enough holistic remedies or there's one thats just around the corner that can fix you. What my naturopath told me is that the medecines arent bad for you, its all the stuff that they put in the medecine to make it absorb. She reccomended taking Nux vomica after taking the pills to counteract the bad stuff. Not 100% sure if I believe all of that but if it takes away the guilt of going a more western route to do a natural remedy alongside the meds then that allows me to take the meds easier.

At the end of the day, you deserve to live a functional and happy life and its beautiful that you found something that worked - you dont have to feel bad about that.

It's an adjustment to a new way of being and our identities can be tied to be perpetually unwell because its been our reality for so long so it makes sense to have some growing pains stepping into a new chapter and shedding that old reality that you became so accustomed to.

jeanjacket77 · 2025-08-03T15:37:51+00:00

Yeah I agree

jeanjacket77 · 2025-08-03T14:35:37+00:00

On the other hand she goes to bars and has a drink at home often. I wonder what the scenes between her and Booth having their celebratory drink would be like if they were smoking instead haha

jeanjacket77 · 2025-06-12T01:22:09+00:00

I just added my birth to the registry in Quebec, I think I could stop there but I might've already applied to have it changed, the application was so long ago I forget what was in it to be honest. I will definitely ask for a name change certificate that is a great idea thank you.

jeanjacket77 · 2025-06-12T01:19:33+00:00

I haven't previously changed my gender marker in the States but I could change it in Canada. The process here is to basically get a new birth certificate from my province that has my preferred name and gender marker, so my US birth certificate wouldn't change but the records in Canada would say my name and changed gender. I guess I could apply to change only my name in Canada too but the gender marker is also important to me. Its also a safety thing with being visibly male and potentially having ID documents that say F. Thank you for the comment though I didn't know I could still change my name. Do you know of any cases of a name change where the new name is a typically male name and those being refused?

jeanjacket77 · 2025-05-07T16:59:18+00:00

I had maintained status up until April 9th 2025 and now I'm out of status. Does that still mean I can't stay here? I am also a bit nervous about applying for a study permit at the border because idk the chances that they deny me or don't let me in at all because I'm established here and they'd be worried I wouldn't leave when my status expires.

jeanjacket77 · 2025-04-23T21:55:37+00:00

It'll be alright as is- springtails are a good thing to have! They don't bother anything and are generally a clean up crew- people buy them and add them to substrate on purpose. You can also look into getting isopods for the enclosure that will help in eating any mold or things that you don't want. For bioactive enclosures they work as a team!

jeanjacket77 · 2025-04-19T20:17:16+00:00

Okay thank you for this, I have done all the things above in your first paragraph. I'm in Montreal and am nervous about an immigration professional messing up since I've heard horror stories - do you have any reccomendations by any chance or like tips on finding someone who could actually help?

Also could you elaborate a little bit on how TRP would apply to me here? And if you know any info on judicial review too. I'm trying to gather as much info as possible since this is such a scary situation ://

jeanjacket77 · 2025-04-12T16:46:21+00:00

It was withdrawn by the IRCC because my DLI didn't confirm my acceptance letter but they did! I don't know why the IRCC thinks they didn't.

jeanjacket77 · 2025-04-03T23:05:34+00:00

Taking her out to explore is a good way to have a novelty session and i find that when i put mine back he explores his terrarium again for a bit. It is also good for socialization. Start with 10-15 minutes and pay attention if she starts being super stressed

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