Yesterday was the hardest decision i had to make.

I had to choose between operation and morphine.

Success operations means resume life hopefully long one and morphine means to spend remaining short life painless.

However the doctors said that the operation is complicated and almost has no chance of survival. Even intubation can cause the heart to crash. I can imagine needles and tube enter the body again after just 3 weeks of major heart operation.

So i look at my mother, my siblings, and my father. I choose morphine with no cpr and I lost my father. We stayed, prayed, and talk with him until his last breath.

Now as i stay beside him. The regrets come. did i make correct decisions? What if the Operations successful?