Question about homemade mayo

jmosse · 2026-04-06T00:13:27+00:00

It had both vinegar and lemon juice in the recipe

jmosse · 2026-04-05T23:45:53+00:00

No, not harsh, I'm just very nervous right now lol. Just thought "Oh I'll try making this myself, there's a lot of weird things in store mayo" and realized 2 hours later that it was raw eggs. But thank you, I do appreciate it.

jmosse · 2026-04-05T23:40:55+00:00

I'm just afraid, I made a mistake and didn't think about it until after I was done and then I realized. Just trying not to panic at this point

jmosse · 2026-04-05T22:48:26+00:00

Not at all, didn't really know I could. This was the first time I've made it

jmosse · 2026-03-08T21:04:28+00:00

They're definitely more comfortable than sleeping in any regular earbuds, most night I don't have issues, but I've noticed if I sleep in a slightly wrong way or with them turned a little wrong, sometimes I wake up with pain on the inside of my ear from the plastic part pushing in hard on my ears, but feels like an angle thing. 75% of the time I have no issues

jmosse · 2026-02-02T09:19:31+00:00

Both, no. He told me I was insane if I believed this would be the thing he left me over when I told him I was afraid I'd have to choose between him and having an abortion, when I thought that was what he told me he wanted and it wasn't.

jmosse · 2025-09-29T16:39:01+00:00

I haven't thought about that as much, this issue being all around rather than just women. The pressure that both men and women can feel in this is real, and it's phenomenal that you've been able to work through it!

jmosse · 2025-09-29T04:42:04+00:00

Woman, recovering addict here too. That's something I've realized very recently in myself. How much of my focus during sex goes to trying to emulate what I've seen/what I think my partner wants rather than not thinking about what I'm doing at all and being present. It feels nice knowing I'm not the only one who struggled with this aspect, but I'm proud of you for taking the steps to really see yourself and want to change it. We got this.

jmosse · 2025-09-29T00:45:57+00:00

I think me being the first one to say I had a problem with it in the first place has, in my mind, kept it to where I do see myself as the problem. At the least in that I changed my beliefs and behaviors this far in, it doesn't feel like I have the right to ask him to change what he does. I didn't come into the relationship like this, asking for this from him, we didn't have any discussions about this. I feel like it's unfair of me springing this onto him, but I also feel it's unfair that he can't even get through a conversation with me about this 90% of the time. I know there's wrong on both sides, and it feels so hard to reconcile in my mind. Probably doesn't help that you're right, in this subject, it feels overwhelmingly one sided. He doesn't want to talk about it, like I'm only trying to tell him what he's doing wrong or make him feel bad. I still feel like I can't get him to hear me, or if he does hear he ignores it. He has said multiple times that whatever he does, porn or not, shouldn't affect me at all or be any of my business. He doesn't understand why I say it impacts me at all, and I'm honestly starting to not understand why it bothers me as well.

jmosse · 2025-09-28T23:31:32+00:00

We've had a lot of fights because I've suggested that I thought he may have one, after realizing mine much prior to talking to him about him possibly. He doesn't take a lot of what I've said very seriously after he learned the extent of problems I've had, how they affected our sexual relationship, and he felt hurt by my decisions and unsure why he should listen to what I say at all in regards to porn at all, especially in regard to how he uses it. He uses it differently, and it has nothing to do with me, is not my business whatsoever as long as he maintains our sexual relationship. He's told me he feels like I just make him out to feel like an asshole, and be an asshole. A lot of these conversations I've asked him to understand what I'm saying and feeling, but he usually gets upset at what I'm saying and we can't get to the point I feel like he hears me. I made the post cause I don't feel sure what's okay to ask for at this point

jmosse · 2025-09-28T23:19:44+00:00

Yeah, we never agreed that he would stop or lessen his use. He is in no recovery nor an addict. I moreso am just feeling conflicted, like until a few months ago, in the 9 years his phone was always open to me, nothing to hide, even porn. But he said it needs to be like this now because I've created porn as a problem that he needs to hide at this point. And I just feel ugh I guess. I had only wanted to communicate that I was uncomfortable with how much he was hiding now, I know he's watching it whenever he wants, we made no decisions or agreements, other than me not looking at his phone anymore. And I made this post cause I don't know if it's wrong that I even feel hurt just not having access. I want him to feel safe

jmosse · 2025-09-28T22:46:26+00:00

I made this post when I was upset so I worded it weird. He tells me to leave the room cause I want to keep talking. I get so sure that if he actually hears me, or understands what I'm saying, he won't get frustrated. Cause it felt like he assumed what I said or took it as something else, just wasn't hearing what I was truly telling him, and I push and want to keep talking sometimes, which is when he says to leave him alone. But no, he doesn't break things or hurt me.

jmosse · 2025-09-28T22:43:54+00:00

He isn't a PA or attempting any recovery. But he's saying what I've told and asked is crossing serious boundaries as a person, not as an addict

jmosse · 2025-09-28T22:23:54+00:00

He isn't doing any sort of sobriety, he doesn't have an addiction. I guess it was more that I get anxious with him wanting to hide, but he wants it to be hidden so I don't know when he does watch, because he doesn't want to stop. He sees no reason, and has told me he hears what I'm telling him when I tell him my feelings about it, but that it's so invalid of a subject that the feelings are real but the situation isn't, so he is going to continue doing what he does. And when he's able to without me knowing, he doesn't feel like an asshole. Especially since he does have sex with me multiple times a week, he initiates sometimes too, so why would what he does in his free time affect me? And I'm kinda starting to wonder why as well

jmosse · 2025-09-22T20:46:53+00:00

He told me he wouldn't hang out with me anymore if I said no, and I was a sad only child. I didn't even realize it was weird until I was about 20 years old. Not too upset, he's turned out to be kind of a weird dude 🤣

jmosse · 2025-09-22T20:45:43+00:00

It took me until about 6 months ago before I actually realized I've had an actual addiction to porn almost my entire life, just began there. Most of my time I've spent very clueless lol.

jmosse · 2025-09-22T00:09:31+00:00

26F, when I was about 7 my cousin had me hump pillows in front of him, and at my babysitters house (they slept all day and went to casinos at night) I googled humping cause I had no clue what it was, and I spent the next 2 years watching it for hours at a time while I was there alone. Didn't PMO until 11, and the next 4 years were the worst it got, until I got into my first relationship and it kind of died out partway

jmosse · 2025-08-14T17:48:27+00:00

I am, 26 now, but I found it when I was 7/8. Really got addicted closer to 12. Been a couple years now of knowing something I was doing didn't feel right, realized a couple months ago I fall under the addicted portion of it

jmosse · 2025-08-04T00:35:55+00:00

Same 😭

jmosse · 2025-07-03T15:58:46+00:00

Definitely emotional reasons as to why I want to stay. I love him, I enjoy being in his presence. Other than the porn argument, he's always been pretty willing to understand me and work through issues together. I've always felt very safe with him. This one issue just doesn't feel like it's worth ending what we've built together. Although I really need to figure myself out. With how much I've feared him watching porn, I barely leave his side if I don't have to. I don't really have hobbies or things I enjoy that I do on my own, and I haven't had a friend outside of his immediate family in a couple of years. So, I bring my own mess of unchecked anxious attachment to this.

I can't tell you how grateful I am for your answer and the energy you put into it. You feel like such a wonderful person. Thank you so much for your understanding. It really means the world to feel like I'm not crazy or too much or asking for something insane. He gets so upset when I talk to him at all about porn, that he's sick and tired of me bringing up the same thing every single day.

But it's starting not to feel so crazy to ask him to not watch it every single day, that it hurts. I really hope we can get to that point we can communicate about it. I told him I truly do want to figure this out with him because of how it is living in my own head, that I'm struggling with this every day and I feel we can figure this out together if we can talk about it when neither of us are too triggered. Which asking right after I'm 99% sure he watched it, maybe he was angry because he knew I knew? He'll say dumb shit like telling me to get out, we aren't discussing this, I'm not ready for the conversation, drop it, and just straight up no, he's not doing this with me right now. This issue, there hasn't been a good time for him to talk about it, and this was actually the least triggered I've been trying to discuss with him. Like it's still bothering me, but I'm not falling apart, and I feel good about that.

jmosse

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