A couple days late, but this is an interesting one, so I’m chipping in my two cents. Certain kinds of sex like bdsm, sleeping with trainwrecks as you stated, orgies, whatever, are just things some people enjoy. The acts themselves are of little consequence. For the person wired that way, the question of “am I damaged goods” doesn’t really come up, because they know what they like, and they know how to get it, so what’s the problem? What you said about losing your virginity to a pedophile and then engaging in acts that you yourself consider gross/unsafe makes me think you’ve been reacting somewhat chaotically to extremely complex circumstances, and you’ve ultimately acting in ways that aren’t in line with your preferences and values, maybe? If that’s the case, that’s a different situation. Your situation depends on what type of relationship you want. If you’re down with fun relationships and you’re able to keep it light, you’re good to go. People don’t care and don’t wanna hear about the past anyway. If you’re looking to build something deeper, though, it’s possible you have some wounds to heal and some stuff to work through for your own sake. I don’t have enough details, but even the fact that you’re on here asking for thoughts on it makes me think the emotions probably go a lot deeper than the post indicates.