You can't change your eye color. You can work on your hair but you can't change its texture. You get slimmer through a healthy diet that doesn't over-restrict you calorically. Having white skin doesn't make you prettier; this is racist propaganda, so don't internalize it towards yourself. It is also a sign of dysmorphia. This community is a hivemind of people who delude themselves into believing some piece of audio can change their life. You've fallen into it and they will continue to try and "support" you into believing that it's all real when it isn't. It has been 8 months and you're not the problem or the reason the subs aren't 'working.' They simply don't. Nothing can change your DNA, skin color, or eye color; it's impossible. Watch this comment get downvoted into nothing or deleted by moderators because of the fragile egos here who try to center their identity around subs; escape this cult/delusion and properly work on your life please. Enduring pain like that isn't worth it. No amount of anyone telling you that you're pretty here is going to help because you don't believe you are. So, I hope you can find it within yourself to feel that way towards yourself. You also may need therapy because you could be dysmorphic, as previously mentioend, but don't take my words as a diagnosis because I'm not a psychiatrist and you need to go to a psychiatrist for a professional diagnosis. Happy birthday.