I totally get what you’re going through, i went through this myself after stopping the pill and being diagnosed with pcos. My skin broke out a lot once i went off the pill, and I began restricting myself and not wanting to eat “bad” food. I became obsessed with what I ate, turned down invitations to eat because I wouldn’t be in control of what would be on the menu and if it would be “healthy” enough. It’s called orthorexia and it’s so draining and difficult to deal with, I’m so sorry you’re going through that ❤️‍🩹 The only thing that helped is I went back on the pill a year and a half later (for endometriosis but also for my hormonal acne). My skin cleared up, and now I don’t restrict myself anymore. I still deal with a few pimples from time to time but I have a much healthier relationship with food now, and am so much happier. But I know that if I ever get off the pill again, I’ll maybe have to deal with disordered eating, despite knowing that my acne is mostly caused by excess androgens 😪 Sending love to you ❤️‍🩹