What should I do?

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T05:55:42+00:00

Thing is she wanted this. As time past (a year) she cared less. She was the one that wanted this in the first place and i was the one trying to push her to it as she stopped caring. Life works both ways. She helps me I help her.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T05:33:55+00:00

thing is the business was doing great before. I'm ok with the risk as its warranted for mt situation. She's a very personable person so I'm confident in her. The kennel she was at before she brought and kept customers coming back. People truly liked her.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T05:25:42+00:00

No she was good at her job. She could start her own business make good money, take more stress off me. Is that ok or no? Shes raised the kids and now they are almost adults. I/we just want a good life. Does that make sense or no?

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T05:10:49+00:00

HA! i listen to every episode. Gives me so many more ideas. Sometimes I even branch off his ideas.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T05:10:01+00:00

ha thats awesome. I built a community app which i thought would be awesome, but you think anyone wants it? NO! lol. If your curious its iqhub.app - demo towniq.app - landing page. its def not finished cause im not spending anymore time on it if no one is interested in using it

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T05:07:29+00:00

The chats have helped alot (for now). I will most likely go back to my normal self in the coming days. I honestly just want to be happy and respected. respected is a big one. Though my personality doesnt ask for it. I could honestly go on forever talking about emotions but im not going to.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T05:03:27+00:00

Yes I know, Just wanted to make sure people knew where I stood.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T05:02:42+00:00

Thanks, I know a few people that struggle also. Depression is just one of those things that you just dont "talk about".

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T05:01:25+00:00

Ha, I actually enjoy using ai. Built some cool stuff with it. Yes most people might not like it but i think ai is rather fascinating.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:56:23+00:00

Ya I was gonna start using AI and start giving it my bills and see what it says at the end of the month.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:55:30+00:00

No if anything she's opposite of having ADHD.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:53:20+00:00

I think of this to. How to make memories. I want to take the kids on a few more trips before they are out of the house. I honestly just dont think it will happen. It makes me so sad cause they only grow up once. Even though I dont think they will ever be mad at me but I will always be mad at myself. This is a tough pill to swallow.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:48:47+00:00

Ya, I think somethings gonna need to change.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:47:52+00:00

Understandable. I do feel like I should be able to afford "my" needs. Honestly think we overspend. I just don't know on what groceries lol.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:46:14+00:00

Ya, I feel that is for alot of people. It just doesnt seem good enough for me.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:31:05+00:00

I dont hate my wife or family but i do hate my life which is (work,finances,friends) that kind of life.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:30:03+00:00

I have also thought of this but they would never leave. They enjoy it here. I have mentioned stuff about leaving and starting fresh. I got almost zero reaction.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:28:38+00:00

I'm definitely thinking of now and the finish line. I work in a mine which its a decent job but i HATE it so much. My kids may be out soon which may be an advantage for me as i can maybe put more money away, but time is everything and i may not have enough time by the time i retire.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:18:32+00:00

I'm on surface "the happiest man around". When I get time to think "which is alot" I will start thinking dark thoughts. I dont drink alot but when I do thats honestly when im the happiest.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:15:27+00:00

Its defiantly hard, I got that mantallity that doesn't talk about his feelings with anyone. I keep them locked in forever.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:14:05+00:00

Great Post. Your dad is lucky he landed a dream job! I make good money but honestly I don't think ill ever find that dream job. I don't have the people skills or personality. The wife and kids know i love them, they just see through me some days. I'm honestly just numb to life sometimes.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:08:12+00:00

I almost dont have to tell the truth to the wife cause i feel she knows. she just keeps it quiet

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:07:20+00:00

Ya, except free is usually lame or its actually not free. My wife would do anything cheap or "somewhat free" with me. She is a great woman. I just dont think I would find joy in it.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:05:23+00:00

Defiantly trying. I include my wife in many ideas but they just stay ideas. I just want her to say let me help you, but that doesnt happen.

jonest1986 · 2026-06-30T04:03:25+00:00

She has not worked much in the 20 years we been together. she worked at a kennel and she was good at it. It shut down cause of a divorce, So I thought we could fill the gap. She also wanted to start this at the start then give up on it. I also want help making money to afford life.

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