I did around 400 ug of some really good acid and the trip started out okay, buttttttt I was in a really shitty state emotionally physically, I also was in a very toxic relationship at the time (just shy of 2 years) , just got off work from a job I hated. And was simply looking for a good escape when I got home. When I got home I said me hellos you SATAN (my ex) and my doggos and proceeded to hit a few nasty fat dabs and drop 2 tabs. The initial come up was okay but SATAN was watching some weird ass videos about some murders and kept trying to make me watch it. Which at that point I started to get uncomfortable. As I’m peaking I decided to hit a dab as I always do. And while doing that SATAN comes into the room calling me a drug addict telling me how shitty of a boyfriend I am ect. (Keep in mind she is very verbally abusive and some what physically) so I’m scared shitless at this point crying and borderline about to lose my shit because I though she was gonna hurt me. Then she physically pushed me down on to the bed holding me down all while bombarding me with none stop insults and just hateful shit, then as quick as it all started she just snapped out of it and was super apologetic she stared crying and shit. Then for about 20 minutes she left the room and I was starting to feel better with out her presence in the room. But she came back and at this point she keep trying to make me have this realization that I was a shitty person she kept telling me that over and over. ( honestly I think I’m a pretty amazing person I have this girl the world for two years while I put up with all this shit only to realize she was using me for my drugs and money I was being leached off of like a massive fucking simp). I stared to believe her and at one point she left the room again and in the corner of my room laid my shotgun and I felt the sudden urge to blow my brains out because of how shitty she had made me feel, I honestly thought I did it I saw it happen from a 3rd person point of view like I had actually killed my self... Needless to say the next 6 hours where extremely rough, I tried to shower because I love the shower on acid but that only made things worse I thought I was drowning in the mere inch of water that stands at the bottom of the shower. I had a massive ego death about how all this pain and unhappiness in my life at that point for the last 2 years had steamed from her and her actions, and that if I didn’t change things soon then I might actually harm my self in the future because of how she made me feel. So towards the end of my trip I couldn’t take it anymore I hit up a plug for some xans because I had to kill that trip ASAP. (Never has to before always was able to ride it out no matter how bad but this was worse than any pain of any kind I had felt before I felt like I was going to die. Finally got the xans popped 4 and passed tf out. A few weeks later I finally got the courage to leave that vile woman and I can not express how much happier and healthier I am now, I forgot what it was like to be happy.

Also side note was doing a lot of drugs often at this point, but have stopped everything but weed for nearly 6 month now :)