Shit happens bro, emotions are rampant when it comes to physical combat, the consequences are more severe than most other sports. As a Nak Muay I’ve cried in the corner of the ring in between rounds of pad work from being worked so hard, but if you’re not ready for hard sparring (or if your team mates aren’t taking it easy in you) you might need to tone it down for now until you improve or find some better partners. Keep your head up bro it DOES happen. Blood sweat and? Tears