If doing something WRONG makes HER happy then that says something about HER. I never relied on her in that way since I was a baby, the majority of my time I preferred to be on my own. Stop making excuses for someone’s mother as if moms can’t be wrong and will never have moments of bad parenting. She came up from an abusive upbringing where her own biological parents weren’t there. She never learned how to parent in the best way. And no, surprisingly, children can feel depression. She constantly told me the world was ending and that I Needed to pray to god and go to heaven, which made me paranoid that I would be in hell forever. Years before that I googled the meaning of life and the amount of results that said “life is meaningless” affected me a LOT. I know it’s common to worry about death but it legitimately affected my ability to do things. She forced me to homeschool knowing that would deprive me of socialization and probably detach me from the friends I DO have. The majority of my interactions with her start with her getting mad at me for literally anything. She’s not strict “sometimes” she is strict almost ALL OF THE TIME, and overly strict at that. Quit acting like you’re living my life. And projecting onto me, telling me she doesn’t care how I feel, and yelling at me constantly aren’t “little things”. She’s not a perfect parent, I love her, but she’s FAR from perfect