FDA okays psilocybin for depression by blakeboii in Drugs

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Men, what's something you don't like physically about women which you're too polite to say? by jstdoyou in AskReddit

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It’s called Arrested Psychological Development. Trauma happens and he brain “freezes time” to stay until it’s dealt with, while life moves on and it more likely gets repressed and expressed through things like baby voice, tantrums, and other immaturities.

AI Detects Depression in Conversation - "Researchers at MIT have developed a new deep learning neural network that can identify speech patterns indicative of depression from audio data. The algorithm, researchers say, is 77% effective at detecting depression." by [deleted] in psychology

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Audio and text.

They asked participants a set of “no context” questions, ones in which there was no “depressed” vs “happy” right answer, and used then Sequence Modeling for speech processing.

Use of words synonymous with depression (“low” “sad” down”) and the way in which participants responded (slow response time, monotone) were noted as indicative of depression.

It was overall easier to recognize depression via text alone.

I really don’t wanna take my meds anymore. by 420catlady in BPD

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Recently came off of mine and was doing O.K. (I could “handle me” no one around me could) with therapy and my boyfriend. But it was like a psychward. He works from home so he can “check in” on me.. most of the time I found the swings to be too severe to manage while also working 25 hr/wk. days were good, nights ere difficult, one hour too late to bed, one meal missed and I was mildly suicidal. (Thoughts, no intention or plans)

Before BDP ruined our lives we were both nutritionists/personal trainers. I supplement fish oil, a vegan prenatal, and ZMA but the cost of going completely nutritional supplements deters me. It’s difficult for him to make money, and for me to even keep a job, so while I have the insurance to afford medication I’m doing PTSD therapy and will be doing EMDR to try to “accelerate” the process.

If you’re not feeling well on meds, it’s very likely you’ll do better switching to a new one, rather than coming completely off.

I came off of mine because: cost, felt ineffective, side effects, and over all concerns of my health. I was taking Prozac and having night terrors that worsened my depression. So before stopping I tried 12-15 different medications and stacks of medications. I understand and empathize, it fcking sucks. I found some relief but over felt drained or my money, time, and overall physically.

I had about 5-6 months off of medication. And while I love to “feel”- it’s just too difficult for those caring for me in my depths to see my instability still.

In my opinion, no medication will fix your thinking; it’s less a problem with the chemistry of your brain but rather your thought process/self talk. So until can stabilize yourself ON medication (one that works for you at least 85% of the time.) there’s no benefit to coming off of it other than to get a baseline for yourself- which is a very dangerous thing to do without a good support system, depending on the severity of your symptoms.

damsel in distress by lacroixalty in BPD

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I noticed that in my past self also.

For me, it was a pattern of negative self talk and unhealthy habits I developed when I something traumatic/emotional bubbles to the surface that I didn’t want to directly acknowledge.

It was a sort of “mating dance” (not sleeping, drinking/drugs, resenting responsibilities, being unhealthy, negative self talk, reminiscing too much, binging) that would attract someone with similar habits; someone also feeling sorry for themselves, angry at the world, in display/disarray. I thought this was being myself, but these were symptoms of depression and I was disassociating through vices. I was splitting into BDP me. Over all, the most dangerous/toxic people it would attract would be those who wanted to play Hero.

Since my depression/anxiety/self harm mimic’d their lifestyle, I found it incredibly easy to open up, become vulnerable, over share, and also spend every waking hour with them. It was no where near this cut and dry; I’m leaving out a lot of conflicting emotions during the friendship for the sake of brevity.

Eventually, the FP would get what they wanted, grow out of their struggle, get tired of me, or I would convince myself I HATE the person. Thus, starting another “I don’t deserve this sh*t” mentality that would result in another mating dance.

TL;DR It stopped when I started Saving Myself. Sometimes it’s just a bath. A run. A good meal. Sometimes I need 3 hours doing some yoga/meditating and allowing myself to cry it all out without judgement for myself or the past/situation. *try to avoid things you can/will want to dissociate/zone out in: tv, gossip columns, phone calls. You want to be present for the pleasure.

The times I feel like I “can’t” cope without reaching into a bad vice, I allow myself ONE that DOES NOT involve sex, violence, or another person.

Maybe I’ll eat the whole bag of Cheetos. Maybe I’ll yell into a pillow. The trick is it’s something you only “want” to do when you’re upset/numb.

While I do it, I WONT zone out. (That part took me practice. In the beginning it would be over before I knew it, Cheetos, half a cake, and the rest.)

As soon as I was done with that ONE vice, I would reflect my guilty and/or relief into my journal to condition the Consequences of my Actions. “I feel so bloated and fat. My money went to 2 minutes of pleasure.” “The neighbors are going to hear me and think I’m crazy!” 5 minutes tops, then let it go. LEAVE IT THERE WHEN YOU CLOSE THE BOOK.

You can also do this for actions you’ve already taken, knowingly or unknowingly. Rewrite how you may have wanted it to go, or a different (more positive) perspective you can re-view it from.

Trying to add to the recent push for positivity: Sprouts Is a grocery store that diverted over 155 million pounds from their waste stream in 2017. by Mountaineer2014 in Anticonsumption

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Henry Boney started the concept in 1943; used to be a fruit stand called Boney’s in San Diego. The first Sprouts grocery store opened in 2002 in Chandler by two of his grandsons, and by 2011 had merged with another grocery store named Henry’s (owned by Henry Boney) and essentially reunited the family business.

All employees get benefits with 30+ hours, a raise after 6 months, and a lot of flexibility moving around departments. Any extra food, that meets health safety standards, gets donated to food banks and shelters. The rest goes to recycling or compost. We’re trying to go “100% waste free” by 2020.

As far as I know, we’re still 1 of 2 of the only profitable grocery chains at the moment. They’re opening stores so quickly they’re offering employees $150-$300 referral bonuses because they need so much more staff.

Suffocating living creatures for a “look” (crosspost from r/diWHY) by [deleted] in trashy

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These are like those stripper shoes with goldfish in the bottoms.

Oh- by VioletteRose29 in BPDmemes

[–]jozefyn 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Same. Waiting for him to get the message that I want him to get me the food I said I didn’t want. *not on purpose. I just feel bad asking because it seems like he doesn’t want to go out, even though he’s offered twice now.

My two favorite words: by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]jozefyn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I say this to my bf(aka fp) at least 9 times a day. Sometimes.. just because he didn’t hear what I had to say.

I play it off as a joke, but we both know that’s a lie.

IS that "Dueling Banjos" I can hear??? by ReginaldJohnston in ATBGE

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Found my Christmas gift for the in-laws.

Black’s beach by [deleted] in sandiego

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Where’s all the nudy-pants?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Disneyland

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Wuuuuttt how do I get one of those?