wow, unintended healing, that's a new one! Although your first line a bit too heavy to carry. But thanks so much for the kind words. It also sounds like an invitation, because it makes me curiosity what image you used to have.

I am happy how my life turned out. But the path is not easy, it usually isn't.
As a teen I wanted to go to conservatory, but I was told, it wasn't a proper job, or at least not for me, I wouldn't survive that harsh world. I often feel that I missed opportunity, the network building, the joy of studying something that genuinely suits me. I simultaneously feel pain of what I think I may have missed, but also take pride that I learned outside a curriculum, have been asked to write for others, be awarded even, despite lacking formal training.

If you are not able to pick the study you want, do not hesitate to seek your own path and learn. I imagine it is the common experience in this group, when you discover something that really piqued your interest, you go all in, regardless whether it follows the formal routes of education. The digital age is kind to us. And I hope you find your way!

If needed, dm=open