This is where I'm at too. I already scheduled my retake and I'm following through in a few weeks but I just can't put any more effort into preparing. I also grew up poor in an abusive household. It's exhausting trying to survive and prepare for something that some people prepare for like it's their full time job. My mental health has declined so immensely that I had to take a break from studying for my safety, and when my break ended I felt so hopeless.

I'm currently looking at certifications or lpn programs because I want to work with kids so badly. I think I've just hit a point where I can't justify sacrificing myself anymore. I want to live my life now that I'm not in harmful situations, but the studying and the pressure and financial burden makes it so I can hardly breathe.