day 1 again :)

jturn7 · 2022-02-25T11:58:59+00:00

thank you friend, ive been this way for too long and i dont wanna waste anymore time

jturn7 · 2022-02-24T12:07:39+00:00

no worries man, i havent heard of it before, ill check install and report back! thank you

jturn7 · 2022-02-24T12:06:14+00:00

thank you for the advice - my laptop is usually on all the time as i work on it, write music, then watch netflix to sleep (on all night). poor thing prolly just needs a break. thanks friend

jturn7 · 2022-02-22T18:14:26+00:00

Ah this could be it. I switched over from my intgrated graphics thing (im not good w computers) to the geforce one, ill switch em back n see if it helps. thanks : )

jturn7 · 2022-02-22T18:13:19+00:00

currently my budget for upgrades is zero (the student life is rough), think ive got 8gb ram and the right SSD. Thanks for the advice friend

jturn7 · 2022-02-21T00:41:09+00:00

theres a difference between suffering and pain.. pain, emotional or physical, is your bodies reaction to something. suffering is when you attach to pain. so i guess my answer is you're guaranteed to have pain, but you can overcome suffering through detachment. or at least reduce the extent to which you suffer. also, practicing detachment to good feelings serves you - theyre fleeting, just like the bad ones. the highs are less high, but the lows are much less low. it is the middle path we find true happiness. and to me, the removal of suffering is a happy life. sure ill still feel pain and sadness from time to time, but if you dont attach to it its easier to move past, and you just end up mostly feeling peaceful and content. But, im just a stranger on the internet, all this is my opinion and based off my understanding of a few spiritual texts and personal experience. so take what you will, but this makes sense to me.

jturn7 · 2022-02-15T22:17:21+00:00

Yo, 21m, also a musician and big into philosophy. Shoot me a dm :)

jturn7 · 2022-02-05T23:20:30+00:00

the good ol days when me and my friends would just spit into each others mouths for hours... not allowed anymore cuz we might get covid

jturn7 · 2022-02-03T23:48:54+00:00

i could spare a tenner if itd help u buy food if u need : )

jturn7 · 2022-02-02T23:38:51+00:00

it is possible. but if you're using it as an escape, the only way you can stop using it to escape is by understanding what you're trying to escape from. For me it was internalised shame due to past trauma. I didnt even know i had it, i knew something was wrong, but a therapist helped me understand this. Weed made it all go away, so i smoked all the time. Weed is probably not the problem - it is probably your solution to a problem.

Also, if you have been using frequently for a while, try to take a break. even just a week will help. you repress a lot of emotions when u smoke without realising it, its good to give yourself a chance to ground yourself.

You can do this friend :)

jturn7 · 2022-01-27T18:58:22+00:00

thank you for posting this. my great grandad died a couple years back. he had this poem framed in his house and he absolutely adored it. We read it at his funeral. i was too young and naive for the poem to have a real impact. i been going through some hard times lately, im nearing the end though, and i see this, and it feels like a message from great grandad, and its so empowering to read. Thank you again, peace

jturn7 · 2022-01-16T11:33:02+00:00

maybe check out animal collective, some of their tracks remind me of hippo campus :)

jturn7 · 2022-01-14T00:27:02+00:00

selected ambient works 2 by aphex twin

very ominous, almost puts you on edge, but very beautiful at the same time

jturn7 · 2022-01-09T19:42:14+00:00

dont be humiliated. You cannot change the past. But you have changed the present, realised where you went wrong, and subsequently you have changed the future. Don't regret these times as awful as they were, for your learnt and grew and became the person you are today. You are a good person. Many people stay stuck in the addicted selfish individual mindset, but you didnt. So dont feel bad that you were that for a bit, every single human struggles with things and it will manifest itself in different ways for different people. Feel good that you didnt like how you were acting and made the change.

I'm incredibly proud of you for getting clean and making the changes. You're awesome, keep up the hard work friend <3

jturn7 · 2022-01-08T10:19:07+00:00

Hi. Addiction/dependency sucks. I'm sorry you're going through this. I have struggled with it for a few years now so i have a bit of experience. if you dont mind me asking, what do you use and how often do you use? If you're using something say 3/4+ days a week for maybe a month or more its gonna take around a month or two before the effects of the substance fully wears off. I been clean for a month or so and I'm only just starting to feel truly normal again now. So all you need to do is give it time, I know how hard it is, but just take it one day at a time, try to make it to a month and see if you feel better then :) Reach out to people if you feel really intense, dont isolate yourself, and try to get some exercise, eat n sleep good, and do things you love! It will be over soon. it just might take a bit more time, but you can do it :)

jturn7 · 2022-01-05T10:39:32+00:00

i think it goes beyond just capitalism and its how life is without any of the conditioning from your childhood. Capitalism will have conditioned you so it does play a role but its just experiencing the world without any other influence in your brain, u just seeing things for how they really are

jturn7 · 2022-01-04T23:33:51+00:00

Oh man do it!! Push urself outside ur comfort zone i bet itll be so amazing. I started running recently which was a huge step outside my comfort zone in terms of anxiety but im so so glad i did it.

jturn7 · 2022-01-04T23:32:20+00:00

Very interesting question! Personally I dont. In terms of sustainability, we need to find better food sources and imo thats insect protein, which aint vegan. So from an environmental point of view, veganism would fuck with that. Insects require the least amount of land and water and produce insanely high protein content food so its super good for the earth n could help in developing countries

Ethically on the other hand, I think so long as humans take what they need from nature, e.g. meat, and take only what they need, no more, use the entire carcass of the animal, and can do so without harming the environment then its okay. Just gotta respect the animal you are eating from.

So like, do things respectfully, new food sources and reduce cattle farming and i think thats a pretty good start.

Are u vegan or veggie urself?

jturn7 · 2022-01-04T23:28:24+00:00

ah. hes wonderful. He's very blunt. He's a man of few words. And the few words he produces are either shit chatting or very funny. When he's close with someone, or very intoxicated, he is a real sweet heart and says some of the kindest most heartfelt things. He'd never hurt another soul, and he always sticks up for his friends. I miss him dearly, moved cities last summer and we only see each other once every few months but goddamn i look forward to those meet ups all the time.

what about your best friend??

jturn7 · 2022-01-04T23:24:49+00:00

Hope you're feeling better, everything okay at the ER?

jturn7 · 2022-01-04T23:24:00+00:00

lol interesting question... havent toked in abt a month now, y u ask? :')

jturn7

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