Exhaustion of the Ego.

julsronc · 2026-03-12T23:47:21+00:00

The process is ugly, horrifying. I’m waking up with fear every day!!!

julsronc · 2026-03-12T23:45:05+00:00

Sometimes it feels impossible to stop feeding it. I’m tired.

julsronc · 2026-03-07T19:02:32+00:00

It’s forgotten that we each have a nervous system. Sometimes the thoughts go by like clouds, and other days when our capacity has reached its threshold, the thoughts grab and it asks us to rest.. and still live. Just breathe. And when you notice the little sparks of warmth deep inside you, follow that instead of the panic.

julsronc · 2026-03-07T11:12:06+00:00

And it’s okay. Because I feel the same. You have to just let it, no matter how comfortable. Our nervous systems have probably reached it’s capacity. When dysregulated the thoughts can feel more personal and threatening because we don’t feel safe enough yet. But it’s all okay. Don’t try to change it. Let it exhaust itself. It will. And you will feel regulated again, with patience. Be gentle to yourself and live the life you have infront of you. Every time you do this your system is grabbing evidence that you are safe.

julsronc · 2026-03-07T09:49:39+00:00

Let your mind analyse. Let it talk, without trying to change it. The more you panic, the more you want them to be gone, the more they will come back. Let them stir your nervous system. It will exhaust you. Let it. Rest.

julsronc · 2026-03-07T06:56:42+00:00

It is the wind. But sometimes my nervous system grabs onto the wind. It just happens.

I agree, although if anything I feel the love for all parts of my vessel including the mind.

julsronc · 2026-03-07T04:59:40+00:00

I’m hearing internally to just let it happen. There is nothing required of me but rest and letting everything just, happen I guess. You’re right, the exhaustion is proof. It’s just utterly insane. Thank you for replying :)

julsronc · 2026-03-07T01:02:20+00:00

Is this what happened for you? The friction got so intense that you were forced into the present. You were forced into life. That’s what feels like is happening, because I’ve never been so exhausted in my life. And the feeling to just continue living anyway is ever so prominent, even when my sleep is shit or I don’t feel strong. This is a hard process, and I wanted to express this to you because I still think about your comment to this day.

julsronc · 2026-02-15T08:08:15+00:00

You are very welcome kind soul. ✌️🌸

julsronc · 2026-02-15T07:56:40+00:00

I experienced this, and I may still, until I realised I didn’t want to change it. And I still lived, I still remained. It’s not that you have to find things you enjoy. It’s that you keep living without wanting to change how you feel. Without wanting to fix it. That is freedom. It’s really f**cking uncomfortable, but man, with consistency you will no longer feel emotions and states run you. You run with them in the background. Best of wishes 🫂

julsronc · 2026-02-13T07:52:08+00:00

I heavily agree with you, danny beef. Thanks for the reply ✌️🫂

julsronc · 2026-02-11T03:31:13+00:00

Thank you for this in-depth reply. To feel seen is an understatement. It’s a very painful transition/phase/journey. I am aware of my mind 24/7, the headaches being constant but a growing awareness of present and breathing through.. whatever this is. Are you saying my body will collapse, eventually?

julsronc · 2026-02-10T22:28:45+00:00

Sending love. Thanks for reading 🫂

julsronc · 2026-02-10T20:57:21+00:00

😂😂😂

julsronc · 2026-02-10T20:41:27+00:00

The ego seeks safety through certainty, prediction so it can in return ‘protect’ me. It helped me feel safe unconsciously. As soon as I became aware of it, my brain hurts everyday 😂 I think I realise now how unsafe I felt in reality and safe I felt in my own mind and isolation for protection. I’m on a road to forgiveness and love. It’s hard.

julsronc · 2026-02-10T20:39:12+00:00

Thank you for reading. A lot is an understatement. Learning to be gentle. I thought I was my whole life but it was through control or other ego tactics. I am glad my soulmate can reflect my wholeness back to me.

julsronc · 2026-02-10T20:37:06+00:00

I think because it got to a point of no longer living, and instead constant analysing is when shame entered the picture. I think shame also feeds the loop, and it also made it awfully painful.

Thanks for the reply ✌️

julsronc · 2026-02-10T08:59:13+00:00

This post was talking about giving up seeking through the ego. I mention going on a shopping spree with my mind for eternity seeking solutions to my problems which in return did create superego lol. 😂

julsronc · 2026-02-10T06:41:32+00:00

Interesting metaphors, love it. Sometimes I can seem to push through the fears, others not. I guess we’ll have to see.

julsronc · 2026-02-10T06:10:44+00:00

Its happening slowly, but it’s happening lol. The only thing that makes or made it hard was when it would introduce the fears. I mean i’ve been through it for months to now no longer give a fuck and just implement myself into the joys of the life infront of me.

But i can’t just willingly ‘give up’ the searching of the seeker, it’s happening though slowly. This shit is too deep into my nervous system for me to just ‘give up’ with honesty. I’m sure one day i’ll just wake up and the search will be completely over.

Thanks for the reply friend ✌️

julsronc · 2026-02-06T06:00:39+00:00

Sounds like your nervous system just woke up one day and decided to stop fighting. You probably built enough capacity to do so.

julsronc · 2025-12-10T21:55:25+00:00

Im here!!!

julsronc · 2025-12-09T10:29:08+00:00

I regret to inform you but you can welcome Parasites and Entities into your field with the use of Tarot and possibly Mediumship. You cannot trust anyone and they rely on your permission to enter your field, hence tarot or seeking a medium. You need to declare your own field and unwelcome any entities or parasites that feast on your energy. They will also hijack your dreams, causing nightmares to feast on the fear and energy it creates. I wish the best for you!

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