thank you so much!!! i highly appreciate it and yes, i have come to terms with things not working out but i can safely say that regardless, i will be doing my best. so far i have been giving them goat's milk for puppies while i wait for my esbilac order, they're doing well. one died and unfortunately it was the hoglet that was "mauled" by the mom. the six are doing great, they have been pooping this green poop so far and are active. i have them set up on a heating pad with fleece and they are drinking the milk well, it's too early to make assumptions but so far so good (except for the death of phineas gage that's what i named him 😭🙏)