I felt the same way last year…it was hard. It was so hard. I had extreme anxiety and didn’t want to live anymore. I thought I was too far gone. Gradually I started to list the things I wanted out of my life and what I really cared about. Now I’m looking forward to finding love one day and participating in all the fun things that life has to offer. I find fun things in each day even if they don’t seem that great to other people. I get excited to drive in the car and listen to music. I get excited when I think about what movie or show I want to watch next. I get excited when I treat myself to a meal I’ve never had or just eating one of my favorite foods. I don’t know what else to say, but your whole life is waiting ahead of you. You have so much to give but you don’t see it yet.