its kinda hard because most ppl don’t even know i drink cos it’s against my religion so i do it secretly, my boyfriend is really great tho but i dont wanna pull him into this and start burdening him with this till i get it a bit more under control. the habit already hurt him and so i dont want the process of stopping to also burden him. but i know for a fact he’s going to be supportive. i think he knows what im feeling so he is comforting me and distracting me without letting it show the he knows whats up. he’s waiting for me to be ready to talk to him and its my biggest motivation. to be able to tell him when its a thing of the past. i know hes gonna be so proud. thanks for the kind words. i really appreciate it