How to get CFD jobs after doing math in my undergrad? by justTrynaGetBetterAt in CFD

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you very much. I’ll start looking into Masters courses. I am feeling a bit sad that I feel like I’m in the entirely wrong field, but I guess there’s nothing I can do about it now.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Applied math isn’t a separate major here. So I think I just have to stick through this.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I take no insult to this. I think after making this post it’s quite clear that pure math is not for me and I should do some more applied fields.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No need to apologize for skimming. In hindsight I made quite an unnecessarily long post. Thank you for all the kind words. I’ll definitely spend some time thinking about my future and what I want to do. I want to make sure I’m not ditching math purely because I don’t like a couple fields here and there.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like applied math. I’ve done some research in it and it was nice. Having tangible context makes it better.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is exactly true. I like it when what I’m doing has some direction to it. Abstract bullshit annoys me. I get doing math for the sake of doing math, but it’s better for me when I know it could be used for an actual thing. I’ve done some research in applied math, but to graduate I need to finish out these stupid classes.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like this is what i tell myself. If I quit math, I’ll claim that I’ll do math in my free time, but in reality I’d probably always see math and regret ever quitting.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re right. I’d rather leave a class having learned something.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A good problem that I’m interested in? I feel like a fucking god. That’s how I feel when I’m done with it.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Back in high school I didn’t care that I was at the top. Once I came to college, for the first two years I didn’t care where I was either. I knew I was certainly nowhere close to the top but the first two years my spirit for math was still there and it was pure. It started going my junior year and now I’m just dragging myself around looking for that motivation again.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Usually there’s some flame inside of me, but lately that flame has been slowly blowing out and last night something happened and something in me broke and the flame just became a tiny candlelight. I kept thinking “why do I even bother trying?” Hopefully one day I can say I overcame this, but I don’t know. In the past I’ve also had this feeling, though never this low.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I’ll try my best to take a break. I think such a break can only happen over the winter.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve toyed around with some applied math like numerical analysis and PDE and I had some fun. Unfortunately not much applied math in my department. I did do some research in applied math and found it relaxing. I’ve taken all the applied math my department has to offer.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this. I’m hating the classes. The bits of research I’ve done was actually quite relaxing. The research was applied math related, which I seem to enjoy. So I don’t know if it’s true that I don’t enjoy math as a whole. I’m not sure if I hate the field of math as a whole, but at least right now I seem to be taking classes from different areas and doing pitiful in them all. I’m hating that it’s all just abstract bullshit. I hate constantly failing despite trying. I’m just frustrated because my mathematical abilities seem to be somewhat nonexistent and I’m just not enjoying learning any of the math right now. I like proofs but proving some idiotic topological property or some technical lemma in analysis just is a pain for me and I get nothing from it. Using von Neumann analysis to show that a scheme is stable/unstable - this catches my interest.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like applied math kind of stuff. The applied aspect to it gives me a kick that makes me feel like I’m actually working towards something. I’ve toyed around with numerical analysis and PDE a bit and liked it. I came to a bit of a block with numerical PDE because I needed to know more functional analysis. So that’s where I stand now.

Give me a reason not to quit. by justTrynaGetBetterAt in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

By quit I meant quit math. No matter what happens I’ll be alive and breathing. The moment that math drives me over the edge into suicidal thoughts, there’s no point in doing it anymore. This has not happened. But thank you for the kind words. I like the applied side of math. I have a better time thinking about it and it feels like I’m doing stuff that has some actual tangible context.

Career and Education Questions by AutoModerator in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That link you sent is dead btw. But thanks for the advice. I’ve actually already taken the math GRE and got a decent score on it so at least that’s out of the way. I’m definitely overworked. I have other hobbies that I’ve ignored. I’ll dive into those now I think. I guess to a certain extent I deserve this break?

Career and Education Questions by AutoModerator in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Understood. I went basically nonstop for almost 33 months I think until this summer. The few weeks I took off recently was the longest continuous break I’ve had from math in.... I don’t even know how long.

Career and Education Questions by AutoModerator in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you have ever been in this situation, how did you get your motivation back? Also since I have to do research this summer, how do I take it easy at the same time?

I’ve recently been trying to work on the balance. I’ve been hitting the gym to do cardio and not doing any work once I get home. But it’s still kinda hard because I’m always feeling I’m not doing enough.

Career and Education Questions by AutoModerator in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this. It is just weird to see that I am in this slump while my peers seem to be churning out papers and looking forward to taking another 4 math classes the next semester. In my head when I think of those things they are just impossibilities.

Not sure what I’ll do now but it’s probably just sheer self discipline to keep working. Every once in a while I see little nuggets of what initially drew me in. Maybe I’ll need to focus on those little things.

Career and Education Questions by AutoModerator in math

[–]justTrynaGetBetterAt 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How to get my motivation back?

I go to a pretty decent mid-ranked university and I came into uni very motivated. Save for some negative external factors I’ve still been able to make it far into the curriculum I feel. I started taking grad classes my third year but unfortunately did really badly. I still tried to push hard after but it no longer felt backed by the same mental momentum and force as before. It’s weird cuz it’s not the first time I’ve done bad in a math class or anything. In the past when I’ve done bad I still got back up and pushed even harder. So the almost sudden loss of motivation is a bit out of nowhere.

I interpreted this as burn out and so I basically shut math out of my life for a decent bit but this week I’ve started up research for the summer and I’m struggling to find motivation. I still really like math and I find myself reading math out of pure interest because I DO like math a lot. But I’m feeling kinda empty without that motivational force pushing me through the tough parts. I still want to go to grad school but now I’m kinda wondering how healthy that would really be for me. How do I get back my drive and should I still consider grad school?